Hey hey hey!!! look who's coming baby?! it's 2011 in the house!!! and our guest 2012 who will be "hosting" our life for the whole year of next year. I have to say it's kinda idd for me today, blogging from my phone coz i kinda forgot that it was like a ritual for me to do an entry every last morning of the year.
So, forgive all the misspelling and the odd looking spacing coz im not use to this. Anyway, New Year's Resolution. Hmm, let's review what I've achieved for the whole year of 2011. I believe, 2011 has been a wonderful year for me. Although I faced little hiccups along the way, all has been good. I've been given opportunities to strive, to change a stagnant position and to choose a path of a better life.
As I stride along the early quarter, I faced the most challenging part of living. A task to choose between a full gain or a complete loss. A risk to be taken and to be responsible for the outcome. And once again, God has given me the best gift I've ever had. I know I deserve this because I worked hard for it.
I'm not gonna dwell much on whatever you know. So, like I always say "Look Forward". I'm sure 2012 will be a better one. If I'm lucky and if you're lucky and if God wills it, i just might say hello to marriage! Hahaha!!! So let's pray for best! Strive for the best! And do our best for next year.
It's almost December peeps. Are you guys ready with your NEW New Year resolutions? Wait... what am I talking about... Did you hit any resolution target(s) this year??? Truth be told, I haven't. Okkk I lied. I might have. Hit a few. (not in the KG area though OTZ) But today's entry is driven by my anxiousness of not being able to wait for 4-6 weeks for a certain verdict. This year, my life path is being paved nicely. Though hard on the "golden" road, I'm stil alive and kicking. Like I've mentioned earlier, I hit a few bottles on the bar. (Again, not on the KG department T__T) Nevertheless, Alhamdulillah, I've managed to find half-of-myself. (HALF is a BIG portion, mind you)
Today, I'm anxious. I went to 2 awesome, golden-eggs-in-the-basket, life-changing-opportunity sessions and honestly, I've never been this grateful in my entire life. After all, I've been telling myself that I've been cursed since... forever O_O. Opportunities like these never come one after another, I believe. And there they were, both in my hands. Although, they did look promising, but the verdict lies in God's hands (and the people involved.lol). I've tried my best, I gave my all. All I'm asking is just a tiny little chance.
Ok, back to the reason why I'm being anxious and acting like a beaten snake. Pumpkin received 2 'party' invitations. A 2.4 and a 3.6. Of course he went with the 3.6. For a young corn like him, that's pretty darn nice! And I'm happy for him. He tried his best. He worked for it. And I witnessed it all. How hard he took everything and never feeling resentful (unlike me =_=). No wonder God treated him nicely. He deserves them. I'm proud of you sweetheart!
On the other hand, I have to wait 4-6 weeks for my turn. I have a strong feeling on this and I'm hoping for something to happen. Please pray for me :)
I just got back from my short (but awesome :D) holiday, in my hometown. I've never thought a four-day trip could be so relaxing. Maybe I just needed some time for myself. But then again, I never really get to relax. Since Day 1, I was occupied with so many things, not to mention I was caught in a plan I never knew about. Although I didn't get to do many of my own things, I'm happy I get to spend time with almost all of my branch family members. And oh, did I mention the food? :D I enjoyed this trip so much, I even slept in the car because of exhaustion every end of the day!
Laksa Bowl: Yes, it's empty :D
At least, I get to spend some time with Ryl, Debra and Cyn. (Thanks Ryl for the car. I lap you!) Hung out with Chrys at Bing. Had post-birthday celebration and Meat-Fest at Hornbill Steamboat and Grill, Mee Merah (uber-delicious red Noodle at Uncle Lim), Laksa Sarawak, Kolok Mee at Ah Lai, Damit Satay (pun: be damn by the skewers. haha) I swear I gained at least 10 pounds. * runs *
Satay Damit (Not DAM*ED)
This is what we're talking about! The real shizz y'all! Uncle Lim's Mee Merah wOOOt!
When I arrived in KL, I was so excited to see Pumpkin that I left a box of Salted Terubok Fish, a bag of cheese sticks, a whole bag of awesome chicken snacks and my favourite black sweater at KL Sentral D: I know.. You don't have to say it, I am the Goddess of Clumsiness and Carelessness. I received a good scolding from Mummy the next morning. =_=
Not gonna type much but, here are some of the photos from the trip :D
Hello Steamboat and grill ( and 100 poundsss)
Dusk: Late journey to Sematan
Dawn: Late night and early rise at Sematan
Satok Wet Market: Reminded me of the late Atok
O-miyage! Photos of Fat Patches and Yukki!!!!!!!
This has got nothing to do with the trip but I miss Patches (our house-cat in Kuching) and I also wanna introduce you to my new baby, Yukki! :D
Fat Cat: Patches. She's in Kuching. Patches!! I miss youuuuu
My baby: Yukki loves to be pampered to sleep =)
P/S: I will write my book review soon. I promise. sigh...
September 28th 1984 marked the beginning of the journey of life for a little baby girl, who was then name unknown. According to a very reliable source, it was approximately half an hour after 1 on a Friday afternoon when the baby first saw light and was born into this cruel, little world. Fortunately, the little girl was given life and was given a chance to live although surviving the first few months was difficult for her. Getting her little feet punctured everyday to get blood samples, getting fried under the morning sun and getting "artificially" tanned under the yellow bulb with high voltage just to keep the bilirubin level at normal state wasn't what she asked for or what she expected in life....
But oh well, what am I whining about. It's been 27 years since that happened. Happy belated birthday to me!!! It was a wonderful birthday. I get to celebrate it with my speacial someone this year. Been 7 years since the last time. Well, let's break down the birthday blog to 2 :D (I have a feeling it's going to be a long one =_=)
THE NOT-SO-FUN PART * A self realization theory and a path to change *: So the first thing that roamed my mind when I woke up on September 28th 2011 was, "God still wants me to live! I've been given another opportunity to change my life" And then it occured to me, "What have I achieved in this 27 years? All life wasted? How about the past 5 years?" I realized something. I've achieved nothing. Nothing at all. At least to me, I've achieved nothing. I have dreams and goals. I want to achieve everything before I'm 30. Dream job, dream house, dream car, travel around the globe, a husband, kids. A normal but good life. After 27 years, I still have no freedom to do things that I want to do. I know what are the restrictions, but I can't do anything about it. It just sucks! But why complain? It's life. As much as you think you're living a shitty life, there are others who are living like shit. When I think I hit rock bottom, my righteousness crumbled. I suffocate. I think of nothing but dying, thinking that it would be easier this way. Come on, seriously, once in a while people do have suicidal thoughts but then it was just fucking wrong. At least, we are reminded of death. Right. I am such an ass when it comes to struggling. I wondered what happened to the little baby who struggled so hard because she wanted to live so bad?
And so, Pumpkin and I watched the movie 'Bridesmaid' on my birthday. Although it's a normal chick flick, that movie changed my perspective in how I myself look at life itself. Like I said, I always think I'm living a shitty life. I think, life is mistreating me. I think I'm cursed. I always have the thoughts that, well, (I know this sounds soooo very wrong and sinful) God somehow, dislikes me. Whatever bad things around me was because, it's fated to be that way. I brainwashed myself into thinking that "It's meant to be. So I'm cursed". Oh yes, I emit negative aura and I suck it in again. It's been an endless loop for me. So, while watching Bridesmaid, I felt pity towards the main character. Her life was shitty! I hate everything about what I'm currently doing. At least, I wasn't unfortunate to be terminated and left on the sidewalk. I just didn't work hard enough to change it. I knew it, yet, I did nothing. Or everything I did was just 'chutto hanpa'.
So after a self-realization, I decided to push myself to the limit. I mean, to the good stuff of course. LOL. This has to be a promise to myself. :D
THE VERY FUN STUFF * I am loved..... * : My parents are not with me for my birthday this year. BUT...I get to celebrate it with someone special. My dearest Pumpkin. The day started with him picking me up from my house and sending me to work. Well, say hello to "I feel like an Ojousama". I got a gazillion (Ok, i lied. not a gazillion maybe about 70++) notifications on my Facebook. Birthday wishes from friends and relatives. Well, thank you Facebook for making people don't actually remember your birthday, instead depending on your notification. LOL. I took a half day that day and went back at 11:45am. Pumpkin picked me up from the station and then in the afternoon we went for lunch at Bumbu Desa ( Yes, I picked the place because i was craving for Authentic Indonesian Cuisine). Pumpkin wanted Tony Romas though =_= but, well, it was my birthday so I get to pick the place. Miahahaha.
The return-to-sender Sketchie. Returned full of love :D
Mom called me up at about 1:41pm because she said, the baby would be cleaned and dressed by this time on September 28th, 1984. LOL. She would never call me earlier than 1:30pm. Anyway, the first person who called me on my real birth time would be non other than my love <3 After Pumpkin, it was Momo. Awhhhhhhh (touched) Speaking of which, I would like to thank those who texted me on my birthday. It shows their sincerity. Namely, Chrys (even before 12AM of 28th with the excuse she might fall asleep) LOL. Nisa, who remembers too! And an unknown number. Thank you , whoever you are!
The ice cream cake at Baskin!!! Thank you dearest!!!
Later on, we went to the movies and also karaoke. In the evening, we celebrated my birthday at Baskin! Ice cream cake!!!!! :D I feel so loved~ After eating half of the cake at Baskin, we went back to my place with some cupcakes! Played with dry ice and created "magic" cup, then later on watched Juno. It was a wonderful birthday. Pumpkin made me feel 10 years younger!
The magic cup :D
Oh, so I thought it ended there. I was wrong. He called me up later and sang Nat King Cole - L.O.V.E. over the phone. * dies * Thank you Love for everything
Thank you everyone for the wishes and prayers.
Last but not least, for me, I guess my theme song for this birthday is by Muse - Invincible. It sorta lifted my spirit to not ever give up and to fight and turn around my shitty life into a better one! The lyrics especially. TT______TT Thank you Muse!!
How did I come across this book? Well, there's this app in my phone called Kobo eReader and from this app, you can actually buy amazing eBooks or even download them for free! I'm not sure if they have this for iPhone or Blackberry. Now, let me tell you something amusing. I have an amazing Android smartphone, HTC Desire HD. It has an amazingly huge (for a phone, of course) 4.3" touch screen and it's perfect for me who have problem reading small fonts. LOL. It runs on Android version 2.3.3 with HTC Sense version 2.1. Technical wise... I don't think I bother too much about it. But what's important is, it's easy to use, very friendly and the best part is, most of the apps are free! (Now, now, I know I've been using this phone for over 9 months and I only bother to talk about it now.. ) Again, let's go back to the eBook that I'm currently reading.
Basically, I've only read Chapter 1, and it's intriguing, I can tell you that much. I've not read the synopsis too coz you know what they say, don't judge a book by it's cover (well, literally and technically, the synopsis usually is written behind the book =_=) From what I've read so far, the story revolves around a successful and beautiful woman named Taylor Steele who has a desire to conceive a child but not get tangled up in a thing called marriage. The thing is, it's not just about shagging up and get knocked up by anyone. Taylor Steele has been eyeing on a potential father for her child and he is non other than the most eligible, rich, good looking Dominic Saxon. Her plan is to have this "business proposition" presented to Dominic in which she believes that they both have the same goal, for her to conceive a child and for him to father a child and by this she plans out a trip to the Caribbean solely for the purpose of ...... okay, enough preview.
If you want to read more about this, get the book. Or if you have an Android phone, you can conveniently download it from the Reader app for free :D I will continue reading it after work. Hehe. Enjoy!
Again, Happy Birthday Google!! Tomorrow will be my turn! :D
I haven't blogged in a while! D: Hello there readers! (Of course, to those who actually read my blog, not that I write interesting things) Anyway, it was a tiring weekend for me. When I said tiring, I do really mean exhausting, energy-draining, soul-sucked-out-of-body kind of tiring. Well, sometimes some things don't turn out as we plan. Like what we have scheduled will sometimes be overlapped with unforeseen circumstances. Not like we want it to be that way. At least for me, I managed to pay my SCREAMyx bill, got a new wireless modem (and yet, it still doesn't work D:), helped my mom bought brooches for her business at "god-foresaken" Jalan TAR, visited and took care of my sick nieces and nephew, took care of my little cousin and her sister for one night, play with my cat and spend a little bit of time with my boyfriend. What I meant to say was, being next to him physically but soul out lingering in dream world. Poor baby =(
Okay, so it seems like my life was a bit upside down at the moment. Not a bit, but a lot. I am trying to keep myself sane, trying to fix it. Not like I haven't tried, but it doesn't seem to work. Maybe I haven't try hard enough (oh come on....)
Long story short, I'm trying to save up for the 'future'. I'm not gonna say the exact word here because, we don't know what God had plan for us. (us, meaning to say, everyone in general. lol. ) I'm looking for a new placement, somewhere where I can actually boost up my potential instead of just being stagnant. Another 2 more days to my 27th birthday and honestly, I think I have achieved nothing in life. I kept on saying, I've tried! But, I think I never really did. Sometimes, it's easy to just express myself with writing shit like this, as if it's some kind of self-motivation experiment. But, I never get motivated at all!! hahahah!
So I thought, "Hey, what the hell" Life goes on eh. I hope I'll get an opportunity soon. On a side note, my cat, Yukki is so adorable. Will post up some pics of him later :D
It's been 3 years since I last came back for Raya in my hometown. That was like 2008 and well, it was the first time we celebrated Raya without my late Grandfather around. And well, it was a solemn Raya, if I remember correctly. LOL. Like they say, old, sad memories are to be buried deep, deep inside of us.
Well, this year, I'm home. I guess it's the same feeling as "being home for Christmas". Although the Raya feel is not as exciting as how it used to be, but being around family and relatives are the best feelings I guess. (Although, I missed Pumpkin the most)
Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all. Maaf zahir dan Batin :D
Good Morning World! It's 7:38am and I have to admit, it's too early to wake up because it's a Sunday! It's a beautiful Sunday!!!! Anyway, I just got back from Ipoh, a random adventure I must say. LastFriday at 4pm I suddenly felt like buying a one way ticket to Ipoh because I missed that certain someone really bad. (Of course he wasn't amused with the whole thing after being trolled. LOL. Sorry dear) I stayed at Mama's (PsychoKuukie) place on Saturday morning (yes, morning), hung out with her for a while and then killed time at Jusco Kinta City, playing Wordsearch at Coffee Bean while waiting for that certain someone to finish work =)
I've never done this kind of things before. LOL. I'm a poor unromantic and hahaha, after yesterday, I promise I will not do this kind of things anymore without telling him. (I don't wanna come between a man and his plans =_=) Ah well, what's done is done.
Btw, hahahaha I actually wanna post this song for that special someone. (And for everyone else, enjoy this song because Bon Jovi is damn hot awesome. XD
I've been sick for 3 days =( nevertheless, I'm still happy. When I fell sick on Tuesday, I was still working my butt off at the office. Blegh. Me and work. I couldn't lift my finger anymore after 4pm and decided to go home. When I reached home, I was sleeping like a log sick person should be and I woke up at 1:30am. Ah shucks. 10 minutes later I received a text message that defined 'happiness' =)
Still, I was sick the next day. Went to work and stayed for 1 hour and was asked to go home because my face was too pale. Slept almost the whole day. And I took the day off today too just to make sure I fully recovered.
Flu and cough still lingers and my throat sorta killed me a bit. Nevertheless, tomorrow is Friday and Friday means Happy Day! =))))
Happy x 100000000000000000000000000000000000 hundreds thousands millions billions trillions zillions :DDDDDDDDD
P/S: I rewatched "She's All That". Love Rachael Leigh Cook and Freddie Prinze Jr. Here's the infamous OST by SixPence None The Richer. Reminded me of my high school life. 1999 y'll. I was only 15 back then! XD
"It started out as a feeling... which then grew into a hope... which then turned into a quiet thought... which then turned into a quiet word... And then that word grew louder and louder til there was a battle cry... " - The Call (Regina Spektor)
I love the lyrics in this song. It gives me courage to go on and fight my so-called 'battle' :D This song is one of the OST for The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian, sung by Regina Spektor. If you're wondering "Where in the movie was this song played?" Well, it's in the end where the 4 siblings had to go back and when the hot Prince kissed the ugly older sister.
I believe the words are true. I'm currently riding on the wave of happiness. I just hope it will last long :3 At least, I am happy... for now :3
So I have been missing from the Internet world for a bit. =_= This time, I took a break from Twitter. Unbelievable, I know. Hahaha. I used to have this "can't live without Twitter" thing but it faded. "Why?" I wonder. Twitter is addictive, I know. To me, my everyday routine would be to say "Ohayou!" to all my followers on Twitter, and that is the first thing I'll do even before I brush my teeth in the morning. And then, I'd be replying mentions (overdue would be at least within 12 hours =_=) or DMs. All day long, I'd be spouting sh*t on things I'd do and did or posting pictures but mostly spouting sh*t on Twitter. And of course, I'd say "Oyasumi" when I wanna go to bed or at least when I'm not sleeping on the keyboard (and have 'A' 'S' 'D' 'F' on my face in the morning). And for as long as it lasted, I got use to this life and it wasn't bad at all. Somehow, since last week, I sort of, got bored(?) no, that's not the word, more like I don't feel like going on Twitter. I don't wanna read stuff on Twitter because they make me go asdf for no reason at all D: and some things reminded me of stuff that shouldn't be happening at all.
Some reasons might be things like "I don't wanna read nonsense" or "stuff on Twitter makes me asdfasdf all the time" but everybody posts nonsense on Twitter and you can't help but be asdfied by it. Maybe I should specifically say stuff like "I don't wanna read nonsense from certain people, or a certain somebody". Then you will come up with stuff like "Just block/mute them" :3 I can't. Because my followers and the people I'm following are important to me. Maybe I'm trying my best to avoid some things. Things I couldn't say because it's too personal :3 Or maybe I'm just avoiding some people. Maybe. I don't know. I don't know why exactly.
Being too focused on it makes me feel like my life only revolves around it. It's as if I have no real life to run and my life runs on the computer. Not to mention I have to look at the computer almost 20hrs a day. like FUCK. Seriously, before there was Twitter (or the thing the call social networks), there's this thing called cellphones. And I was seriously satisfied with just text message alerts. But now, my phone doesn't rang as much and I don't often get text messages because ppl Tweet! D: And I check Twitter every second of the day, well, I used to D: (and I'm not that free... but then?! D: Naze? Naze na no? Naze na no yooooo???) I just can't get away from it! Oh just to add to that, Social Networks kill real friendships.
What makes me feel worse is, I'm pretty busy with work and all and when I come home every night, I see no one at home. Just furnitures. D: And what's the first thing I would do when I reach home? Login to Twitter and type "Tadaima". OTZ.... Yeah. That's when foreveralone.jpg comes in as a 15mb picture. Dinner? How about dinner you ask? Don't you go out with friends, you ask? Well, Dinner is : 1-300-88-6555(Nando's) or 1-300-888-333(Domino's) D: Everyone has their own life to run.
As complicated as it sounds, the easiest way to solve this is to... well, avoid it. To run away from it. To treat it as if it never existed! (OK. this is impossible). Re-evaluate my life. Set my priorities. I'm not 17! I'm 17 + 10!! D: And I have 1 grayhair! I know some ppl are worried about me because I suddenly disappear. I'm sorry guys, and don't worry about me. I'm fine. I just need time out. * hugs *
And to #Uchikazoku, Thank you for worrying about me, as the head of the family (cough) I'm sorry for disappearing without notice. I'll be back soon, I promise.
And to my friends: To those who texted my phone, you guys are the best! I get text message alerts! hahahahahaha!!! To those who constantly MSN-ing, gtalk-ing me to see if I'm ok, you guys are awesome. To those who asked around because they haven't seen me, you guys are great! Thank you.
To those who didn't even realize I've been missing, thanks for making me realize I'm not an important existence in you life. Arigatou, soshite arigatou.
We jammed all night long. Surprisingly, I think I did pretty well, considering I only practiced once, right there, and I haven't picked up the guitar since 5 years ago. Everything was a bit messy but I think we did ok. For the first 3 songs, we did pretty well. For the last song "Somewhere over the rainbow" punked version, it totally sounded like... a song fit for a funeral. Well, since I just arrived, I didn't have my guitar with me so I made do with the jamming room guitar. It was fucking terrible D: like seriously. After one song, the tuning was off! Everyone was too tired to think. No output at all. We went home at around 2AM. Momo had a sleep-over at my place. We conquered the living room. mwahahaha!!!
Oh. And that night. There were 2 incidents that I can never forget for the rest of my life!!!!
1) Momo and the "Wheel-Chair" 2) The Toilet is not the Exit
=))) these incidents. XD Zutto wasurenai.
Ibanez-san :D <3
Day 2: Going around town. After pulling an all-nighter, I couldn't feel my arms the next day. Although I have yet mastered the songs that we were supposed to play the night after, I still have "FOOD" in mind. (shiawase mono me :3 ) Also, I wanted to go to the museum. LOL! And see crocodiles and stuff like that. So I dragged Momo around with me the whole day. LOL! And i'm sure she wanted to kill me coz I didn't touch the guitar at all. :3
Ah man! Took me forever to compose this blog. Not like I'm busy or anything like that (well, I am quite busy lately :) but anyway, The 6 Days Getaway was asdfly Awesome! Hanging out with my two besties Ryryl and Momo was asdfasdfasdf!!! Things we saw, things we did, things we never thought we'd do. Everything is supercalifragilisticexpialidocious! Imma post some video and pictures! :D
3/4 of Dented: Taken before the 'wheel-chair' incident
Ryryl: Emo pose O_o
Momo: Doing her thing
Dented Pre-gig: Jamming session at Hau's place. Me on guitar that made the most disgusting sound. Of course it wasn't on this video =_=
Today is the 23rd of March 2011. Another day before my trip back home. I was so excited I couldn't sleep last night. (Another reason would be, I was too exhausted, I even yelled for a foot massage in the middle of the night) LOL! It's been almost three years since the last time I went home (as in my hometown). It's not very far away from where I'm residing, it's only an hour and 40 mins by plane. You must be wondering why haven't I been back for 3 years even though it's THAT near? Well, no need to dwell on the past. I'm finally ready to go home!!! ( que: L'Arc~en~Ciel - Link (KISS MIX) in the background)
I wonder if my housekey still works. LOL! I wonder how my room looks like now! I heard it looked like hell. That's what my mom said, coz she went back a couple of weeks ago. I wonder if my room still smells like lavender in-scent (I doubt it =_=). I wonder if my L'Arc's posters are still alive (maybe they faded already). And my hat collection! Oh wait! My legendary desktop. Wonder if that still works. Ahhh~~ I'm so excited. Most importantly, I wanna reminisce about the old times when I was still living in that house. About my late grandfather. About the things we cousins do when all of us were still talking to each other. LOL. Don't ask. Ok moving on.
Coincidentally, there is an event that will be held this Saturday in accordance to Earth Hour and Dented (my band) are going to perform that night! So tomorrow night (once I reach Kuching International Airport), I am scheduled to be kidnapped by Dented and I will have crash-course "Guitar for Idiots" with Momo since I haven't touched guitar since, er... forever? No I'm kidding. Since years ago. Again, I lied. I just haven't practiced for the performance. OTZ...
When we talk about my hometown, Kuching a.k.a the Nyaaa~ City, it's all about THE FOOD! Well to me it is! ahahah!! * must think of counter strategy for all the food I will consume! * I will update it all in the blog or realtime update on twitpic/twitter :D
For whatever reason it is, I can't wait to go home.
(Though Imma miss a few ppl like everyone in #Uchikazoku, Skype fellows, Yancha sekai de ichiban dai suki na akuma no ero petto Yukikun, Fuku-kaichou Peace, Idol Piro pyon, Kaichou Kururugi, Yamada sensei, Futago-chan, Nyanmaru, Gatekeeper) Le sigh.
Hello World?!: Restrictions? This is the gdamn 21st Century!
It's almost a week since kuso kaisha banned a lot of sites including * clearsthroat * echofon-ing. I mean, I do have another option, which is my phone, demo... chotto mendokusai na.. It's troublesome to switch from doing work on the laptop and then using the phone to reply all the mentions (or to vent anger/emo-ness) I feel dead. ( oh you must be wondering why i like to use the word "Dies" "Dead" lately. Hmm... no particular reason, except, try listening to Dream Theater's "The Spirit Carries On". You'll understand.)
I used to be frightened of dying. I used to think death was the end. But that was before, I'm not scared anymore. I know that my soul will transcend.
If I die tomorrow, I'll be alright because I believe that after we're gone, the spirit carries on.
Pfft. Ok. sounds so cult-y. But anyway, I wonder why they have to do these kind of things. We're not fucking kids! Let me tell you what I think, I think it made me less productive, more stressed and freaking feel like smashing my laptop! (PFT! It's just FUCKED UP you know. I just saw Hades checking out Channel V Asia for celebs news. WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT ABOUT?!) These unfairness has gone too far. RESTRICTION in 'Hell' is not all about SITES. It's about fucking everything. Even day offs!
ASDF Level: 10/10
Hello Doomsday: Part I: In Deep Shit
Earth Hour Gig. Yes. Awesomeness. Just so happen that I'll be in Kuching that weekend. Dented is going to perform for that gig! YEAH! It's been years since my last gig. Yon, Go nen gurai? The songs that we're gonna perform are these 4:
D City Rock - PSG OST
I Just Threw Out The Love Of My Dreams - Weezer
(have yet to decide on this ) maybe lostphropets - last summer
Somewhere Over The Rainbow (Dented Version - One of them has to be Environment related song)
I'll be playing guitar for this Dented: Formation B gig. THE THING IS, I don't have a guitar to practice with and I barely have the time to. So I've been practicing on my HD Desire. Yeah, it is stupid. Don't ask. Don't even wonder. Which reminds me, I need to get a new bass. Oh, btw, the gig will be next week. Welcome To Hell. ASDF Level: 5/10
Hello Doomsday: Part II: Tha....na....thos.....
Do you know what this character stands for: 冥王? It means: Hades. LOL. So many work lately. So little pay (I seriously think I'm underpaid). So little time. Maa, work isn't really that bad. It's just, it's related to (refer first part of the post)
ASDF Level: 10/10
Hello Doomsday: Part III: Naze..? Naze na no??? NAZE NA NO YOOOOOOOOOO????!!!
My Demon Pet Hates Me. I don't know what i did though. OTZ...
ASDF Level: 8/10
Hello Rakuen: After we're gone, the spirit carries on
He said something that made me happy. although it's just a simple sentence and the thought of him having thoughts about me is just HNGGGGGGGGHHHHHGHGHGHGHGHGH! (FINE. I'LL GET OVER IT) but let me stay happy for a bit, coz i know he didn't forget about me at least. The things I never thought he would do. =)))
ASDF Level: 1/10
Note: on a non-related subject, I've learned how to curse in Portuguese, thanks to my twin brother.
8,9. Yes. It's a big one. This post is dedicated to those who are in Japan and those who are affected by tsunami and earthquake. My prayers for all of you out there. Be strong.
Since I have so much time (not really =_=) on nothing, I decided to actively write stuff on my blog again. Kuso Kaisha has blocked me from echofon-ing (u know what i mean) so i'm gonna make myself a little bit productive on this side. More like, 'unlocking my creative mind'. I might as well continue writing my SDK FanFiction: The Messenger which is looooooong dead (yeah. writer's block).
By the way, today I feel like writing about the coming Spring Anime 2011. Actually, the ones I'm looking forward to watch =) There are about 19 of them. Some I'm familiar with, some I've never heard of. I'm sure that I might drop a lot out of these 19 series. Oh, by the way, at the beginning of every new season for anime, I will have a folder called "To Drop or not to drop". Miahahaha. So we'll start off the countdown:
19)Kämpfer für die Liebe OH this. Just because I watched the first one. Not that I'm looking forward to it. Another trap anime. =_=
18)Ore tachi ni tsubasa wa nai Something that looks interesting to watch. =)
17)Nichijou (Have yet to get my hands on the details)
16)A Channel (Have yet to get my hands on the details)
15)Denpa Onna to Seishun Otoko Something interesting I guess..
14)Hoshizora e kakaru hashi Harem-themed anime. Meh.
13)Hidan no Aria Omoshiroi kamo....
12)30sai no hoken taiiku THIS. I'm sure this is one funny anime! ahahaha!! So yeah, U get to be in the list!
11)Moshidora Moshidora is a 10 episode anime (according to source: ANN). Well, it's a yakyuu-themed anime. So that's a Yes for me. AN: The title is way too long. "Moshi Kōkō Yakyū no Joshi Manager ga Drucker no Management o Yondara" =_=" LOL!
10)Kami Nomi II The story of the avid gamer Keima. Ah, i'm lazy to write about this. LOL. I'm sure everyone watched the first season.
9)[C] The Money of Soul and Possibility Control Another interesting title. I hope it doesn't suck. Like Level E. The title was... WOW. and WOW, it's like my weekly dosage of trolling traps! :D (OH YES, Level E is awesome)
8)Sket Dance Saw the manga and the art is nice. Not sure what the story is about but I think this one should be interesting. A parody-themed anime, perhaps? Actually the word 'misadventures' caught my eyes. This must be a ROFLMAO-themed anime! :D
7)Hana-saku Iroha Tomatsu Haruka! yeay! =) Oh I love this type of anime.
6)Maria Holic: ALIVE Oh! * Hanaji * hahahaha!!!!
Here are the TOP 5
5) Deadman wonderland I'm sure this is going to be awesome. The title itself is already awesome. Not to mention Paku Romi and Hanazawa Kana combi. XD NICE. I didn't really read through the synopsis of this anime (nor did I Wiki-ed it =_=) I hate spoilers.
4) Steins;Gate Play the game! Hahahaha!!! Oh well, it's been a while since I heard Tomokazu Seki's voice <3<3<3<3 and also Miyano Mamoru's voice. (what was the last one? Star Driver?) But whatever, this is one of the anime I look forward to watching in Spring =)
3) Tiger and Bunny Don't be fooled by the title. Maa, I was like "What the F is with the title" when I looked at the image accompanying the news i checked out in ANN. It's a mecha-themed anime from Sunrise. I'll watch anything from Sunrise. LOL. AN: Did I ever tell u that I wanna become a janitor at Sunrise? LOL.
2) Ao No Exorcist First reason : IT's FUKUYAMA JUN and Nobuhiko Okamoto! <3 * nosebleed * Oh if you're wondering who are these two. Well they are the infamous seiyuu of Lelouch Lamperouge (FJ) and Usui Takumi (NO). Oh! There's also Naka-pan and Kamiya-san. miahahah =))) Second reason: Demonic things are attractive =) AN: I have yet started on the manga, but I will soon =)
Currently listening to 'Dream Theater - Spirit Carries On' and I was once again brought back to what happened yesterday. I was in the train when I received a text from someone. From the content, I wasn't surprised as this had happened on twitter to everyone in our circle. I decided to write this post for this friend of mind who calls it a quit in our friendship.
Yesterday, I lost a friend. Although we had a short friendship, I believed he shared a lot of things about himself to me that he wished others not to find out. It was a great honour to be trusted with so many things. I've only met him once, but we talked a lot on the net and I still think he's a great friend. He listened to me and worried about me when I wasn't well, when I was down, when I was in the worst possible condition although he was away and comforted me from far. Somehow, he decided to end any friendship/relationship with most of the people he knew on the net. Since he was the one who decided to end everything with everyone, as a friend, it is my duty to fulfill his wish as much as possible.
To this person:
Dude, this is for you. May you have the best in everything in the future. Be strong and don't give up on anything in life. Treasure the friends you have because they care about you. It was nice knowing you and thanks for listening to me and worrying about me all these time. If you believe what you're doing now is the best thing, then as a friend, I understand your wish and it's my duty to fulfill it. Lastly, HAVE FAITH IN PEOPLE. Don't let THAT ONE PERSON ruin your life and let you give up on others. There's much more to life than what it seems. And there are other people you can trust. You're a grown up so be strong, okay. Take Care Bro. You will always be my friend forever.
Although it's a bit late, (I wished solemnly before =_= Truly sorry about that) Here, from the bottom of my heart, I wanna wish everyone who reads my blog A VERY WONDERFUL NEW YEAR and hopefully the year 2011 will be a prosperous and blessed year for all of us. Thank you for reading. =) If I ever hurt anyone from January to December of 2010, please forgive me. Hahahaha!!! Let's start a new book shall we?
2010 ended pretty bad for me. Hahaha!! It was worse than 2009 and I took it really hard for ONE whole day (yeah.. no need to dwell too much on it) and then I was back in shape, not trying to be happy but AM HAPPY. Everything that happened in 2010 stays there. I don't wish to take it with me. All the good memories, the one person that almost changed my stoic self into a 'fuwa fuwa' person, and that same person who ripped me apart must be sealed.
The first half of 2010 was rather fast moving for me. Although overall, 2010 marked the year of being 'stagnant', some things did change in my life. The Second half of 2010 was much more fun but it went down in the slump in the end. I met lots of new people, made new friends and was involve in new activities. Now, i even think of cosplaying. LOL. I know, I know. I'm not all moe and cute. I'll cosplay as a monster, maybe *coughyukionnacough* =)
Here are my review on 2010:
- When 2010 started, I sort of 'quit' being a hikikomori and was more outgoing. - I learned who were friends and who were foes. - Was the year of MEN = JERKS - Was also the year of 'there is no such thing as bestfriends' - In 2010, there's a new trend called "BLOCK AND DELETE FRIENDS FROM SOCIAL NETWORK" Gosh. HOW CHILDISH. - I learned that being FRIENDS have TERMS AND CONDITIONS. For example: I cannot ask questions FTW. Wait, then how do we fucking communicate? WTF O_O - PEOPLE DON'T MEAN WHAT THEY SAY. YES, THEY DON'T MEAN WHAT THEY SAY. - Have you checked the dictionary lately? I think they removed the word "PROMISE" * shrugs * - People change like the weather. At least weather stays constant for a couple of days. - I made a lot of friends through twitter. Good friends =) My Nyanmarus! My Olympians! My Noa and Nano-nee friends =) Comrades. Anime/Manga lovers. I also made friends with cosplayers. I also have twitter family now hahaha. - Most of the people I met online and then later in real life are nice people. - I was saved by someone I met from twitter - I was also broken by the same someone I met from twitter =( - Madarao Hakuroku, my beloved Prince Meow died TT_____TT on Oct 4th - New nephew - Ryuusuke =) - I also learned there is no such thing as Honesty. People wear facade all the time. ALL THE TIME. - Everyone is selfish. Something I learned from 2010. Not that I wasn't aware of it before. I just don't want to know and accept the fact that everyone is selfish - I completed my Samurai Deeper Kyo Manga Series!!! This should be on top =_= - I've become less stoic and less ignorant than before. Maybe 5% less. That' an improvement
