AFT: Away From Twitter

So I have been missing from the Internet world for a bit. =_= This time, I took a break from Twitter. Unbelievable, I know. Hahaha. I used to have this "can't live without Twitter" thing but it faded. "Why?" I wonder. Twitter is addictive, I know. To me, my everyday routine would be to say "Ohayou!" to all my followers on Twitter, and that is the first thing I'll do even before I brush my teeth in the morning. And then, I'd be replying mentions (overdue would be at least within 12 hours =_=) or DMs. All day long, I'd be spouting sh*t on things I'd do and did or posting pictures but mostly spouting sh*t on Twitter. And of course, I'd say "Oyasumi" when I wanna go to bed or at least when I'm not sleeping on the keyboard (and have 'A' 'S' 'D' 'F' on my face in the morning). And for as long as it lasted, I got use to this life and it wasn't bad at all. Somehow, since last week, I sort of, got bored(?) no, that's not the word, more like I don't feel like going on Twitter. I don't wanna read stuff on Twitter because they make me go asdf for no reason at all D: and some things reminded me of stuff that shouldn't be happening at all.

Some reasons might be things like "I don't wanna read nonsense" or "stuff on Twitter makes me asdfasdf all the time" but everybody posts nonsense on Twitter and you can't help but be asdfied by it. Maybe I should specifically say stuff like "I don't wanna read nonsense from certain people, or a certain somebody". Then you will come up with stuff like "Just block/mute them" :3 I can't. Because my followers and the people I'm following are important to me. Maybe I'm trying my best to avoid some things. Things I couldn't say because it's too personal :3 Or maybe I'm just avoiding some people. Maybe. I don't know. I don't know why exactly.

Being too focused on it makes me feel like my life only revolves around it. It's as if I have no real life to run and my life runs on the computer. Not to mention I have to look at the computer almost 20hrs a day. like FUCK. Seriously, before there was Twitter (or the thing the call social networks), there's this thing called cellphones. And I was seriously satisfied with just text message alerts. But now, my phone doesn't rang as much and I don't often get text messages because ppl Tweet! D: And I check Twitter every second of the day, well, I used to D: (and I'm not that free... but then?! D: Naze? Naze na no? Naze na no yooooo???) I just can't get away from it! Oh just to add to that, Social Networks kill real friendships.

What makes me feel worse is, I'm pretty busy with work and all and when I come home every night, I see no one at home. Just furnitures. D: And what's the first thing I would do when I reach home? Login to Twitter and type "Tadaima". OTZ.... Yeah. That's when foreveralone.jpg comes in as a 15mb picture. Dinner? How about dinner you ask? Don't you go out with friends, you ask? Well, Dinner is : 1-300-88-6555(Nando's) or 1-300-888-333(Domino's) D: Everyone has their own life to run.

As complicated as it sounds, the easiest way to solve this is to... well, avoid it. To run away from it. To treat it as if it never existed! (OK. this is impossible). Re-evaluate my life. Set my priorities. I'm not 17! I'm 17 + 10!! D: And I have 1 grayhair! I know some ppl are worried about me because I suddenly disappear. I'm sorry guys, and don't worry about me. I'm fine. I just need time out. * hugs *

And to #Uchikazoku, Thank you for worrying about me, as the head of the family (cough) I'm sorry for disappearing without notice. I'll be back soon, I promise.

And to my friends: To those who texted my phone, you guys are the best! I get text message alerts! hahahahahaha!!! To those who constantly MSN-ing, gtalk-ing me to see if I'm ok, you guys are awesome. To those who asked around because they haven't seen me, you guys are great! Thank you.

To those who didn't even realize I've been missing, thanks for making me realize I'm not an important existence in you life. Arigatou, soshite arigatou.

P/s: Being away from Twitter is calming :3

To a dear friend.

Currently listening to 'Dream Theater - Spirit Carries On' and I was once again brought back to what happened yesterday. I was in the train when I received a text from someone. From the content, I wasn't surprised as this had happened on twitter to everyone in our circle. I decided to write this post for this friend of mind who calls it a quit in our friendship.

Yesterday, I lost a friend. Although we had a short friendship, I believed he shared a lot of things about himself to me that he wished others not to find out. It was a great honour to be trusted with so many things. I've only met him once, but we talked a lot on the net and I still think he's a great friend. He listened to me and worried about me when I wasn't well, when I was down, when I was in the worst possible condition although he was away and comforted me from far. Somehow, he decided to end any friendship/relationship with most of the people he knew on the net. Since he was the one who decided to end everything with everyone, as a friend, it is my duty to fulfill his wish as much as possible.

To this person:

Dude, this is for you. May you have the best in everything in the future. Be strong and don't give up on anything in life. Treasure the friends you have because they care about you. It was nice knowing you and thanks for listening to me and worrying about me all these time. If you believe what you're doing now is the best thing, then as a friend, I understand your wish and it's my duty to fulfill it. Lastly, HAVE FAITH IN PEOPLE. Don't let THAT ONE PERSON ruin your life and let you give up on others. There's much more to life than what it seems. And there are other people you can trust. You're a grown up so be strong, okay. Take Care Bro. You will always be my friend forever.

Out of sight, Out of mind?

My mother usually says something like "Out of sight, out of mind" when she talks to me over the phone, especially when I am far, far, far away from home just because she doesn't want me to feel sad or homesick. She said, chanting it everyday and planting it in my head would give me positive feedback so I can actually focus on the things I should be focusing on and not be distracted by petty things like missing my cat or missing my bed or my loved ones.

NOT A POTTY ONE BUT YET ANOTHER EMO ENTRY OTZ. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.
So this thing happened to me 3 days ago where it almost killed me inside. I thought it did. I've been suffocating and wrapped in this vacuum-like confusion for almost a month now. Walking on a narrow fence, thinking which side to fall to. I never dare to pull the trigger because I don't want to lose what I hold dear but somehow the other side cut loose. Without any explanation. Without telling me why. I was too shocked to think and react. I didn't know why the other side did that. We did sorta have a small argument, not even an argument I think. I stopped questioning. I finished the whole thing with just one statement "Sou...". Yup. Just "Sou..." and the other side had to justify themselves. Why... If you did not do that, the argument wouldn't have break and we would still be at peace wouldn't we?

And so the other side found the shortest solution. Just like someone I knEw from long ago who also did the same thing to me. Blocked/Deleted me from contacts. Is it me or this is ONE FAMOUS GODDAMN SOLUTION? So you think this solves everything?

I don't wanna go through this again after the first time. BUT IT REOCCURRED. Funny isn't it?? If you talk about KARMA, I never once EVER DELETED A GODDAMN SOUL in my contacts. NEVER. It makes me think that people are morons. Real people are morons and selfish being. Some people don't like to be appreciated and they probably hate it that you're being concerned, affectionate towards them. It's not troublesome. It's not annoying. It's not irritating. Only those with a stone heart would think so.

So back to, "Out of sight, out of mind". I believe my mother's theory doesn't work on me. Even when the other side is 'out of sight' they still remain in my brain. I tried suppressing it for 3 days. I cracked the shell last night. I admit that I miss the other side but there is nothing I can do about. It's up the them.

We are The Tweelympians, my friend

The Gods and a Goddess are on Twitter!!

Yeah.. but nope. Not what you're thinking. The era of the Gods and Goddesses was long dead but Homer (nope, not Homer Simpson), author of the epic poems - the Iliad and the Odyssey kept them alive. Me and fellow Tweelympians (Tweeples + Olympians) (laniemon, Yukinao6, kamokun, tangBR) were just bored out of our wits and we thought, "Hey, this is fun" in some unnatural parallel mindlink and started "playing gods" on Twitter! LOL. Just the characters and nope, not really playing GODS. We are mere humans. * shrugs*

Anyway, it all started with me and laniemon; fellow Olympian slash coffee buddy (a friend I met from twitter) bitching about our hahaha "Shachou" and start giving them names; Zeus and Hades. So we usually addressed them as that when we tweet- no, bitch about work lol. Somehow, it got intercepted (intercepted?) and joined by other fellow tweeples and thus, we have a bunch of Olympians now. So we decided to "be" the Greek Gods/Goddess and picked our favourites. So as decided we picked these:

ermakyo : Me as Athena

Image 1: Athena

Yukinao6: Onitan as Hermes

Image 2: Hermes

kamokun: Kamokun as Hephaestus

Image 3: Hephaestus

laniemon: laniemon as Dionysus

Image 4: Dionysus

tangBR: Chii-chan TangBR as Atlas

Image 5: Atlas

Here are the other 2 of the Goddesses that I liked (but didn't picked):

Aphrodite (pronounced as EF-RO-DAI-TEE):

Image 6: Aphrodite

I almost picked Aphrodite. Wait. I did pick Aphrodite and then I changed my mind. I loved Aphrodite, maybe she's next after Athena (or before?) LOL! She's too lovely for my personality. Besides I don't have men groveling at my feet. And Aphrodite is the Goddess of Love, Beauty and Sexuality. (Checked CV: er.... not qualified O_O). And wait Aphrodite married Hephaestus (O_O If u read Homer, Hephaestus was banished from Olympus because he was Ugly. Zeus wanted them to marry each other to avoid war. So, there's no such thing as "opposite attracts" then?) And why I didn't pick Aphrodite? She is gorgeous (me=not), has many lovers (impossible for me too) and consort to Hephaestus, Ares, Poseidon, Hermes, Dionysus, Adonis, and Anchises. See, that's 3 out of the 4 from my fellow Olympians up there =_=

Persephone (pronounced as PER-SAY-FUR-NEE):

Image 7: Persephone

Also, I almost picked Persephone.. again. I have history with Persephone and ... "the late Hades" (the better off dead ex-boyfriend). Persephone is the Queen of the Underworld and wife of Hades. The story of Persephone is terribly sad especially when she was abducted to the underworld. I think she live the most normal life among other Goddesses in Olympus.Oh and referring to the Olympian telling, the gods Hermes, Ares, Apollo, and Hephaestus, had all wooed Persephone; but Demeter (her mom) rejected all their gifts and hid her daughter away from the company of the Olympian deities. Wahahahah!!! Anyway, she was an innocent goddess who picks flowers and stuff until she was abducted by Hades. Zeus did try to ask Hades to return his daughter but the rules of Fates (=_=) say that those who consumed anything from the underworld was bound to live there for eternity. There u go. The epic tale is too long. Anyone interested better go read yourself. But, the story of Persephone is my favourite, next to The Odyssey. =)

So why did I pick Athena then?

Because Athena is the goddess of war, civilization, wisdom, strength, strategy, crafts, justice and skill in Greek mythology!!!!!! Muwahahahahah!!!! She is smart. That's why i picked her. She is heroic! She's a warrior! In the simplest text, AWESOME. Enough said. =)


I don't know about the other guys but my reason for picking Athena is just that. She is awesome. And I want to be awesome. No, I AM AWESOME. LOL! * gets bricked *

Maybe next time I will talk about The Odyssey. Story of Odysseus and his handsome son, Telemachus.

Sources:
Athena: (Source: http://inertiak.deviantart.com/art/Athena-85360364?q=boost%3Apopular+athena&qo=7)
Hermes: (Source: http://walterka.deviantart.com/art/Hermes-the-god-of-slyness-123473731)
Hephaestus: (Source: http://www.gaiaonline.com/forum/barton-town/greek-mythology-rp-re-accepting-don-t-mind-everyone-join/t.44340433/)
Dionysus: (Source: http://www.freewebs.com/rockaway/peopleofthewest.htm)
Atlas: (Source: http://curtydc.deviantart.com/art/Atlas-167076542?q=boost%3Apopular+Atlas+god&qo=23)
Aphrodite: (Source: http://myambeon.deviantart.com/art/Aphrodite-177607689?q=boost%3Apopular+aphrodite&qo=10)
Persephone: (Source: http://blackeri.deviantart.com/art/Persephone-36462190?q=boost%3Apopular+persephone&qo=12)