2010: The Review

Let's have a good new year's wish.

Although it's a bit late, (I wished solemnly before =_= Truly sorry about that) Here, from the bottom of my heart, I wanna wish everyone who reads my blog A VERY WONDERFUL NEW YEAR and hopefully the year 2011 will be a prosperous and blessed year for all of us. Thank you for reading. =) If I ever hurt anyone from January to December of 2010, please forgive me. Hahahaha!!! Let's start a new book shall we?

2010 ended pretty bad for me. Hahaha!! It was worse than 2009 and I took it really hard for ONE whole day (yeah.. no need to dwell too much on it) and then I was back in shape, not trying to be happy but AM HAPPY. Everything that happened in 2010 stays there. I don't wish to take it with me. All the good memories, the one person that almost changed my stoic self into a 'fuwa fuwa' person, and that same person who ripped me apart must be sealed.

The first half of 2010 was rather fast moving for me. Although overall, 2010 marked the year of being 'stagnant', some things did change in my life. The Second half of 2010 was much more fun but it went down in the slump in the end. I met lots of new people, made new friends and was involve in new activities. Now, i even think of cosplaying. LOL. I know, I know. I'm not all moe and cute. I'll cosplay as a monster, maybe *coughyukionnacough* =)

Here are my review on 2010:

- When 2010 started, I sort of 'quit' being a hikikomori and was more outgoing.
- I learned who were friends and who were foes.
- Was the year of MEN = JERKS
- Was also the year of 'there is no such thing as bestfriends'
- In 2010, there's a new trend called "BLOCK AND DELETE FRIENDS FROM SOCIAL NETWORK" Gosh. HOW CHILDISH.
- I learned that being FRIENDS have TERMS AND CONDITIONS. For example: I cannot ask questions FTW. Wait, then how do we fucking communicate? WTF O_O
- PEOPLE DON'T MEAN WHAT THEY SAY. YES, THEY DON'T MEAN WHAT THEY SAY.
- Have you checked the dictionary lately? I think they removed the word "PROMISE" * shrugs *
- People change like the weather. At least weather stays constant for a couple of days.
- I made a lot of friends through twitter. Good friends =) My Nyanmarus! My Olympians! My Noa and Nano-nee friends =) Comrades. Anime/Manga lovers. I also made friends with cosplayers. I also have twitter family now hahaha.
- Most of the people I met online and then later in real life are nice people.
- I was saved by someone I met from twitter
- I was also broken by the same someone I met from twitter =(
- Madarao Hakuroku, my beloved Prince Meow died TT_____TT on Oct 4th
- New nephew - Ryuusuke =)
- I also learned there is no such thing as Honesty. People wear facade all the time. ALL THE TIME.
- Everyone is selfish. Something I learned from 2010. Not that I wasn't aware of it before. I just don't want to know and accept the fact that everyone is selfish
- I completed my Samurai Deeper Kyo Manga Series!!! This should be on top =_=
- I've become less stoic and less ignorant than before. Maybe 5% less. That' an improvement

Final Post 2010: Short & Meaningful. (At least to me it is)

It's that day of the year again. Yes, the last day of December, the last day of the year and usually people will come up with new year resolution and such. Well, I used to do that. This year somehow, let's make it subtle and real. Rather than overlooking the whole year, I wish to divide it into short term goals. LOL. And for year 2011, I won't ask a lot from myself and people around me.

1) I wish to stay healthy the whole year. I hate to be sick all the time. Which means, I promise to take care of myself and I promise I will eat. hahaha!!! Yes I promise.

2) I want to make a huge turn before June 2011. Which means, I wanna do something big. I've had enough of being a midget. Not that I'll grow tall or anything of that sort lololol~, that would be a wonder.

3) I want to make amend. Especially to him. I wish that things will go back to how it used to be. That would mean a lot to me because I missed all the things we shared and the time we spent together, although it's intangible because I can't seem to forget it all and pretend it never happened. (If you're reading this, I hope you'll forgive me for everything. You know who you are)

Out of sight, Out of mind?

My mother usually says something like "Out of sight, out of mind" when she talks to me over the phone, especially when I am far, far, far away from home just because she doesn't want me to feel sad or homesick. She said, chanting it everyday and planting it in my head would give me positive feedback so I can actually focus on the things I should be focusing on and not be distracted by petty things like missing my cat or missing my bed or my loved ones.

NOT A POTTY ONE BUT YET ANOTHER EMO ENTRY OTZ. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.
So this thing happened to me 3 days ago where it almost killed me inside. I thought it did. I've been suffocating and wrapped in this vacuum-like confusion for almost a month now. Walking on a narrow fence, thinking which side to fall to. I never dare to pull the trigger because I don't want to lose what I hold dear but somehow the other side cut loose. Without any explanation. Without telling me why. I was too shocked to think and react. I didn't know why the other side did that. We did sorta have a small argument, not even an argument I think. I stopped questioning. I finished the whole thing with just one statement "Sou...". Yup. Just "Sou..." and the other side had to justify themselves. Why... If you did not do that, the argument wouldn't have break and we would still be at peace wouldn't we?

And so the other side found the shortest solution. Just like someone I knEw from long ago who also did the same thing to me. Blocked/Deleted me from contacts. Is it me or this is ONE FAMOUS GODDAMN SOLUTION? So you think this solves everything?

I don't wanna go through this again after the first time. BUT IT REOCCURRED. Funny isn't it?? If you talk about KARMA, I never once EVER DELETED A GODDAMN SOUL in my contacts. NEVER. It makes me think that people are morons. Real people are morons and selfish being. Some people don't like to be appreciated and they probably hate it that you're being concerned, affectionate towards them. It's not troublesome. It's not annoying. It's not irritating. Only those with a stone heart would think so.

So back to, "Out of sight, out of mind". I believe my mother's theory doesn't work on me. Even when the other side is 'out of sight' they still remain in my brain. I tried suppressing it for 3 days. I cracked the shell last night. I admit that I miss the other side but there is nothing I can do about. It's up the them.

When Tigers ROAR!

Yeay! It's not new year until it's Chinese New Year!! This is my first post for the year 2010.
EDIT: okay.. so it's not the first post. I lied.
I realized that it had to wait THAT long. You know, one and a half months. What's that all about? I've been busy(-ing) myself with orchestrating a rebellion. But I was defeated by viral fever for a week so the rebellion had to wait. I'm pumped up this week so hopefully something WILL happen. (Praying hard). In the mean time, I'll update what's been happening for the past 1 1/2 months I was gone (away from the blog). And... not that there's anything much going on.

January, Dad's been forcing me into an army-camp-like training. It started when he dragged me out of bed because I think he realized that I'm turning into and 80 year old bottle of elixir. (Why elixir? Don't ask. I can't think of anything else that sounds 'old' and.... well... elixir isn't really a good example of 'rotten') The best thing about this training is that, my theory on "I can't run because I have asthma and my knees are suffering from something-I-don't-know-what-you-call-it" turned out to be FALSE! The real reason why I can't run is simply because I. AM. LAZY!

You know the saying, "You can do it, if you want to do it" ? Well, this really applies here. LOL.

During the army-camp-like training, I've only been living on yogurt and yogurt drinks. WHY you asked? Well, nothing in particular. (Not that I am PARTICULARLY afraid of food.. or anything like that). I mean, I think it's good to maintain a good diet while I'm actually having this training you know, not that I'm on a diet or anything like that. ( clears throat )

I guess that's pretty much it. The summary of 1 1/2 months. I can't seem to get myself to be like the usual. My body is still suffering from the aftermath of the viral fever and I'm currently fighting - hives. It's very rare to happen. Once it's there you'll feel like shedding a new skin. Night time would be the worst time especially the combination of being sleepy or/and itchy. Be happy if you're married or staying with a man. At least someones is there to help keep your mind away from the itchiness in many, many ways. Hahahah!!!!

Okay.. forget about it. The next post will be about something more entertaining!

Gong Xi Fa Chai 2010!! RAWRRRRRR!!!

Year End: Update on the Kakkois :D

I have a new eye-candy!!! Andddd he is Saotome Alto of Macross Frontier. OH MY GOD!
I know I'm very very very very late to realize this... but at least I do now..... My year-end quote is.... "I WANT ALTO ON MY WALL!!!".

Yes.. I missed buying the calender for 2o10 and it is now out-of-stock. And somehow... they don't reproduce Calendars.... O_O... pelik rite?

Anyway,
update on eyecandies/mansluts for Year 2009.

1) Saotome Alto (of course...)



2) Date Masamune.... (sorry Masamune-sama!)



3) Onime-no-Kyo


4) Sebastian Michaelis


5) Kuchiki Byakuya (O_O??? Why??? Because he looks cool in the Zanpakutou fillers)




I can go on forever... but i better stop now.

Anyhow... to everyone, A very Happy New Year. May 2010 be a great year for all of us!!!


Happy New Year 2010!