Showing posts with label Akira no Kangae desu. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Akira no Kangae desu. Show all posts

Friday, June 17, 2016

The Truth Behind a Façade

Ramadhan is a holy month for us Muslims and this is the time, most of us (if not all) will be doing our very best to surrender ourselves to kindness, humbleness, patience and endurance and most of all to God. Some, will practice all good deeds religiously, which is, of course, a good thing. However, come end of Ramadhan, this will end too. Does this only apply to Ramadhan and if so, what happens to the normal days of our life? Is this all an act? Are we acting all holier-than-thou just because it’s the holy month?

I’m not the most pious person out there, heck, I’m just a humble servant of God who is not whole and is still searching for guidance to lead this life to the right path. And I, a puny human being have no rights to say my thoughts out loud on this matter. However, the existence of social media has made us all the victim of being judgmental.

Even severe injury from a blade cannot compare to the pain produce by the sharpness of these 10 fingers of ours and the verbal torture from these lips. Other parts of the body move faster than the brain and the desire to be known and to show-off the high level of idiocy intelligence is beyond how much most of us can comprehend. Let’s walk through some scenarios that we sometimes encounter during this month.

Let’s go back to the first day of this year’s fasting month, where Pumpkin was involved in a self-accident while on the way back to our home from work. He fell off his bike because the car in front of him stopped abruptly. He didn’t hit the car but he fell on his own (yes, due to inertia). The driver got out of the car, walked towards him and started spouting rude words, telling him if he was stupid or if he was blind. What? Not even helping him up from his falling position, words spilling out of his mouth was nonsense.  And this guy, ladies and gentlemen, was wearing a kopiah, on the first day of Ramadhan. Probably on his way to break-fast and tarawih. What happened to compassion?
Next, the things people write on the Internet/Facebook/Twitter during fasting month when it is a bothering factor to them, are mostly mean stuff, but on a more subtle wave. (Myself included). What is this patience and endurance we are talking about? Did we really “try” to practice it just because it’s fasting month? Does that mean, we can revert back to being mean AFTER Ramadhan?

The face you carry during this month is all glowing and full of light. Once you see a spot of bother (e.g. a girl with short skirt who walks in a Surau to pray), your mind automatically produce mean thoughts and you start gossiping with your friends. “OMG, wearing that kind of outfit and then praying? What was she thinking, not respecting the religion blablabla…” So, who is standing at the wrong side now?

Again, I’m not the one to talk as I’m not perfect and in the state of  “under-construction”. But people, really? What is Ramadhan to you?

I’ll observe myself after this and monitor all the violations I have done to myself in Ramadhan.

Happy fasting people.


Friday, May 27, 2016

It's Totally Laziness. Period.

It's 2016 for God's sake. So it has been what? A year since I last looked into this blog? I was reading through it the whole afternoon and thought "Hey, you have a goddamn emo soul, yo!" And yeah, no need for applause. It's a fact.

The reason I thought I want to write back it, to improve my sucky english coz I've been married and we communicate in so many rojak language  to entertain my long lost reader. I've also been actively updating my FanFiction on Samurai Deeper Kyo and I'm proud of it!

I will be starting a new role in another 5 days and I'm damn nervous. New job, new responsibilities, better pay. Lolz. After reading this blog, the old entries I mean, I realized I love to use the word stagnant and for a while ( a long god damn while ) I was stagnant. Feels like my life shuts down and my relationship with the fibre-optic love (blogs, Twitter, etc.) was dead. Well, not entirely. I'm pretty active on Facebook and Instagram.

I took a couple of days off of work just to relax and unwind with my Pumpkin (he needed the  break more than I do).

So this entry is dedicated to my recent trip back to Hometown (first trip together as husband and wife * omg.. it still sounds weird to me even after 1 1/2 years* )

Well, after the wedding, I never went back to my hometown, since my parents are staying here with us, I thought it was not necessary to go back and all. However, this time, I was craving for authentic Sarawakian cuisines *yes, namely Kolok mee, Laksa, etc. *

So feast thy eyes with the below!!! (just some photos with Hattori in it *Hattori is my whale shark *)

Hattori and Laksa Sarawak

Kueh Teow Tomato

Hattori and Bing's Banana Chocolate and Brownies

Until next time readers!
Toodles.

Friday, August 28, 2015

After 3 years...

Wow, it has been THAT long since I've written anything on this blog. It's like... it was dead for 3 years and here I am, writing again (there is a possibility that I might take its life back seriously after the silent years).

Well hello there readers!

First and foremost, after not updating you guys on anything... well...

I'm MARRIED!

I know, I know... it's been a year. It's like... a week more to our 1st anniversary. But, well, for starters, there you go. 


I'm planning to write more, but since this is the first post, I'm just going to leave it at this.
(This sounds familiar, haven't I done this before? Said I'd be back and then... came back after 3 years??) lulz


OK OK. I'll try to write every now and then. It's odd to start in September, but it's a first step to actually get into gears. I'm planning to post lots of good stuff here. Among others that has already sided in this blog are, keeping fit (yes I will try), healthy food, lifestyle, travel and also, (of course!) anime update.

So, hopefully, my old fans (uhmm.. i dunno if i have any) will come back to cheer and support me on this! 

P/S: I need to re-deco my blog template.. it looks... dark =_=


Toodles!
Ruru



Friday, June 22, 2012

Summer 2012 Anime

Oh Sh- Been a while since I last posted anything here. Talk about writer's block. Huhu. Anyway, hope that everyone has been living a great life thus far. I know I've always been giving excuses when it comes to writing. And here, I have to blogs that I need to update! (P/s: Do visit the other so-called "formal" lifestyle blog: Live Your Own Pace)


So, what have I been up to?
Many! I still owe u guys the L'Arc~en~Ciel post right? I'll get right at it.


But before that, let's talk a bit about Summer 2012 Anime


As usual, I would only write about the Anime that I'm looking forward/ might want to watch. Hahaha. I'm good like that. Somehow, the Spring 2012 Anime was a disappointment to me.
( Arrangement is random :D )




1) Kingdom
via: Kingdom

Release: June
Genre: Action, Historical, Drama
Seiyuu: Masakazu Morita, Fukuyama Jun


Hmm.. this anime is based on a manga by Yasuhisa Hara. Well, it was released a couple of weeks ago and I've watched one episode. What I can gather so far is it's about 2 orphans, one who aims to become 'The greatest General' and the other who will be an emperor and is set during the Warring Period of ancient China. I'm not sure if I still wanna watch it. I'm not really attracted to the art. (Yes, I'm very picky and particular about it, unless the storyline is good) As for me, a historical anime has to have that deep impact. For example: (clears throat) I'm a fan of ikemen. I mean, come on, most of us girls do. And something like Hakuouki would really hit the spot!


Don't think you miss anything if you don't watch it. So,
I say: Watchable



2) Jinrui wa Suitaishimashita

Release: July
Genre: Fantasy
Seiyuu: Nakahara Mai


I have no idea what this anime is all about, but the title is very intriguing. I just might watch it. So I guess I'll wait for it's release date and then update about it. Gonna watch it because of Nakahara Mai!!! (If you wonder who she is, she's playing Zakuro of Otome Youkai Zakuro)


I say: Might Watch


3) Natsuyuki Rendezvous




Release: July
Genre: Romance, Drama, Supernatural
Seiyuu: Nakamura Yuuichi, Fukuyama Jun, Ohara Sayaka


Romance-themed Anime. I think my last favourite was Kimi ni Todoke. Oh how I love Kazehaya. Wonder what this will serve? From the info I gather, it's about a part-time florist, a heartbroken store manager and a half-naked good looking ghost husband! With Nakamura Yuuichi (Saotome Alto, kyaa!) and FukuJun, I'm hoping for something that makes my heart "blossoms"!


I say: Must Watch!



4) Arcana Famiglia: Yūreisen no Majutsushi

Release: July
Genre: Action, Fantasy
Seiyuu: Mamiko Noto, Fukuyama Jun, Tomokazu Sugita, Nakamura Yuuchi


I dunno what to expect from this, but it does look interesting. Can I say it's like... a Mafia Family with supernatural powers? Whatever it is. I'm watching this. Check out the seiyuu line up mang!


I say: Must Watch!


5) Chouyaku Hyakunin Isshu: Uta Koi

Release: July
Genre: Historical, Romance
Seiyuu: Endo Aya, Suwabe Junichi, Hayami Saori


This is the historical IMPACT that I'm talking about. HAHAHA! Ok, I'm sorry for putting a point out of my preferences. However, Yes, this is the type of Historical Anime that I want to watch. With Endo Aya (Sheryl Nome of Macross Frontier), Sawabe Junichi (Grimmjow from Bleach), Hayami Saori (Musubi from Sekirei) in the seiyuu line up. Let's hope this is a good one.


I say: Must Watch!



6) Binbougami ga!

Release: July
Genre: Comedy, Supernatural
Seiyuu: Hanazawa Kana, Tomatsu Haruka


Finally! A Sunrise-produce Anime! An anime based on a manga in JUMP! Hahahaha! Ok I don't wanna read the plot summary, I don't wanna check out the manga, yet, I'm just gonna wait. 


I say: Must Watch!


7) Hakuouki:Reimei-roku

Release: July
Genre: Historical, Supernatural, Romance (Gyaku-harem?)
Seiyuu: Shinichiro Miki, Showtaro Morikubo, Hiroyuki Yoshino


The prequel of the previous Hakuouki series. No need to elaborate on this =_=


I say: Might Watch


8) Sword Art Online

Release: June
Genre: Action, Adventure, Fantasy, Game, Romance
Seiyuu: Tomatsu Haruka, Itou Kanae, Taketatsu Ayana


Not my type of Anime. But I'll give it a try, coz the character is cute :D


I say: Watchable



9) Hagure Yuusha no Estetica

Release: July
Genre: Supernatural
Seiyuu: Nobuhiko Okamoto, Hikasa Youko, Hanazawa Kana, Takahiro Sakurai


Every season, there has to be an anime related to "Demon King" and "Heroes". OH well, I'm gonna watchi this because of Takahiro Sakurai. Haven't heard him voicing anything for a long time.


I say: Might Watch


10) Campione!

via:Campione!

Release: July
Genre: Romance, Harem, Comedy, Magic
Seiyuu: Hikasa Youko, Hanazawa Kana


I'm not sure what this anime is about, but I'm watching this :D


I say: Watchable

So what anime are you guys watching this season??

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Read and understand the 'euphemism' :D

It's almost December peeps. Are you guys ready with your NEW New Year resolutions? Wait... what am I talking about... Did you hit any resolution target(s) this year??? Truth be told, I haven't. Okkk I lied. I might have. Hit a few. (not in the KG area though OTZ) But today's entry is driven by my anxiousness of not being able to wait for 4-6 weeks for a certain verdict. This year, my life path is being paved nicely. Though hard on the "golden" road, I'm stil alive and kicking. Like I've mentioned earlier, I hit a few bottles on the bar. (Again, not on the KG department T__T) Nevertheless, Alhamdulillah, I've managed to find half-of-myself. (HALF is a BIG portion, mind you)

Today, I'm anxious. I went to 2 awesome, golden-eggs-in-the-basket, life-changing-opportunity sessions and honestly, I've never been this grateful in my entire life. After all, I've been telling myself that I've been cursed since... forever O_O. Opportunities like these never come one after another, I believe. And there they were, both in my hands. Although, they did look promising, but the verdict lies in God's hands (and the people involved.lol). I've tried my best, I gave my all. All I'm asking is just a tiny little chance.

Ok, back to the reason why I'm being anxious and acting like a beaten snake. Pumpkin received 2 'party' invitations. A 2.4 and a 3.6. Of course he went with the 3.6. For a young corn like him, that's pretty darn nice! And I'm happy for him. He tried his best. He worked for it. And I witnessed it all. How hard he took everything and never feeling resentful (unlike me =_=). No wonder God treated him nicely. He deserves them. I'm proud of you sweetheart!

On the other hand, I have to wait 4-6 weeks for my turn. I have a strong feeling on this and I'm hoping for something to happen. Please pray for me :)

Monday, September 26, 2011

When one door closes another one opens, (I hope) Wheeeeeee!!

I haven't blogged in a while! D: Hello there readers! (Of course, to those who actually read my blog, not that I write interesting things) Anyway, it was a tiring weekend for me. When I said tiring, I do really mean exhausting, energy-draining, soul-sucked-out-of-body kind of tiring. Well, sometimes some things don't turn out as we plan. Like what we have scheduled will sometimes be overlapped with unforeseen circumstances. Not like we want it to be that way. At least for me, I managed to pay my SCREAMyx bill, got a new wireless modem (and yet, it still doesn't work D:), helped my mom bought brooches for her business at "god-foresaken" Jalan TAR, visited and took care of my sick nieces and nephew, took care of my little cousin and her sister for one night, play with my cat and spend a little bit of time with my boyfriend. What I meant to say was, being next to him physically but soul out lingering in dream world. Poor baby =(

Okay, so it seems like my life was a bit upside down at the moment. Not a bit, but a lot. I am trying to keep myself sane, trying to fix it. Not like I haven't tried, but it doesn't seem to work. Maybe I haven't try hard enough (oh come on....)

Long story short, I'm trying to save up for the 'future'. I'm not gonna say the exact word here because, we don't know what God had plan for us. (us, meaning to say, everyone in general. lol. ) I'm looking for a new placement, somewhere where I can actually boost up my potential instead of just being stagnant. Another 2 more days to my 27th birthday and honestly, I think I have achieved nothing in life. I kept on saying, I've tried! But, I think I never really did. Sometimes, it's easy to just express myself with writing shit like this, as if it's some kind of self-motivation experiment. But, I never get motivated at all!! hahahah!

So I thought, "Hey, what the hell" Life goes on eh. I hope I'll get an opportunity soon.
On a side note, my cat, Yukki is so adorable. Will post up some pics of him later :D

Monday, July 25, 2011

Venting =_=

I'm not gonna deny how screwed up of a person I am. It's when I'm really in deep shit, only will I think of God. Not that I don't have Him in my mind and heart. Well, you know what I mean. For those who read this and think they are like me, well, we are human, as long as we realized it, we're ok. For those who read this and think they are not like me (which means, you think you're superior, awesome and pious) well, good for you, may you be like that for the rest of your life. Now, how many of you think life is unfair (ah... no need to throw popcorn)

They say, God gives you challenges and difficulties in life only when He knows that you can handle it. How and what you should do depends on you. Sometimes (most of the time, I mean) I can handle it well. But a triple combo buried me deep into the ground, I think it will take some time for me to get up and start walking again. Most of the time I feel used and abused. Sometimes, I feel blessed with people I have around me who supports me in everything I do and back me up when ever I'm in deep shit.

Sometimes, we can't stop people from labelling us or thinking we're some kind of an alien. It's what they call "Freedom of Speech". I was once called a "Venusian" by an unidentified microorganism (who isn't so human himself... jeez.. ). Sometimes I wonder, what I did wrong, so bad that it seems like the whole universe is going against me. (oh well =_= i think everybody feels the same. ) I've never felt so much hate and discrimination against me before. Who am I to complain when I have nothing at all and I'm just a mere human being who isn't as great as any other I know.

I'm not asking to be defended because I don't think I did anything wrong that I need someone to defend me. If God wanted me to be born this way, then does anyone has the right to question God's will?
If you question what is written in the book of fate, doesn't that make you go against God? I'm very disappointed, sad and depressed with the whole situation and I don't usually bother about it, but this time, it's a big thing for me.

Btw, on an unrelated matter, after 26 years, my mom still doesn't understand me. I'm disappointed. But well, by saying this, it must have sounded like I'm that kind of kid, you know. The Bad Kid Who Is Never Thankful For Everything She Got. blegh. See how people judge, from the outside. They never ask! They Assume. Now you wanna ask about the reason behind the rapid increase in statistics of educated individuals in mental institutions or suicidal cases in the world? You should know the answer already. Because no one listens.

Well I have to agree with the counter measure people take in avoiding these kind of cases like having those 1-800-call-me-if-u-feel-like-jumping-off-a-building care-line. But, what these people need is to talk and understood by people they love.

(Just to be clear,This is NOT a suicide note =_=) But I do feel like cutting it short is the simplest way to forget everything. More like, not living at all. Like Freddie said "Mama.... I don't wanna die, but sometimes wish I've never been born at all"

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

You've never heard of Green Day (LOL. Good Riddance is a song)

THIS POST IS LONG OVERDUE =_=

It kinda surprised me that some people think of themselves as God. Okay maybe the way I put it sounds wrong. Put it this way. It kinda surprised me that some people just can't forgive. Some people think the world revolves around them not the other way around. Some people can hate others like it's their job. Some people are so sexist that they didn't even realize they are born from a mother, which is a woman. Some people are... ( creatures unclassified).

This is not a rage post, it should be categorized under "Realization and Respect".

Lately, I've been busy living the best out of life and yes, I have found my source of happiness (omedetou soshite, omedetou to me). And God knows what I have to go through to achieve this. In the process, I've been heartbroken, crushed, re-lived, crushed again for many, many times and yet, it's the same person that I almost gave up upon that made me happy til today (thank you dear =)). Somehow, as we gain, we lost. I lost a friend along the way (well, if you put it in a way that won't sound mean, this person was a friend, at least, I thought he was).

I've always thought a person who talks shit about others by not confronting them are fuckers and has no balls (if he is a male, and not a she-male, that is). I also hate people who talk shit about other people in their blog and tell "unfortunate" tales about themselves by vomiting vulgar words and playing "victims" in the eyes of people who don't know them. But most of all, I hate people who are cowards and can only yap in the back but turn into dried plums when confronted. No. More like, running with their tail between their legs.

So this one person (non existence?) talked about "that certain someone" in his blog twice. TWICE. yeah, talk about being clingy and all (told u he still sayang you, dear. LOL. J/K) Was he that upset about "that certain someone"? if he is, then why not tell him in his face?! Coz blogging about it doesnt help, really. Talking shit about others behind their back only happens in high school, between 14 years old GIRLS. Also, if you don't like/ don't favour "that certain someone", you don't go deleting others that are associated with them, if you think the others are your friends. Wait, you don't have friends do you? Because you hate humans? Oh, and you also hate FEMALES because we're from VENUS, right, we're aliens. How can I forget that fact! D:

So this Non-Existence, thought of me as a friend, but not anymore. Because I'm in a relationship with "that certain someone" and he said, I showed him the side of me that he doesn't know. hahahahahaah!!!! Which side of me DO YOU KNOW? Did you even know me at all? This is so funny really, it all started that particular day. If I remember what happened that day....

1) Non-Existence called me the night before "that certain someone" asked me out and asked me why I agree to meeting with "that certain someone" when i hate "that certain someone" so much. Here's news for you Non-Existence, I FORGIVE PEOPLE ALTHOUGH THEY DID SHIT TO ME BECAUSE I'M NOT GOD AND I'M A MERE HUMAN BEING. I can't judge people and decide they are scums like you did.

2) I showed up at a certain cafe with "that certain someone" and didn't know Non-Existence was there. And according to some ppl who were there, he KNEW "that certain someone" was coming so he waited. Question: If you HATE "that certain someone", then why did you wait for his arrival? Because you loved him so much that you wanna create a shoujo manga scene and make me look like I'm the bitch who stole your boyfriend? Because u wanna play victim? Because U wanna be Ts-Tsu-Tsundere?! YOU FAIL! He stormed out of the cafe and he didn't even talk to me.

3) Non-Existence blocked me from Twitter and also others who are associated to me and "that certain someone" because he was heartbroken wait, wait he thinks he is Zeus and can erase ppl from the surface of the Earth. But of course, he can dream that doesn't sound right either. Because He IS AND EMOTARD. Come on, I'm not surprised anymore. This is not the first time he blocked me from Twitter. Friends don't do that. Scums and assholes do. If you think of me as a friend, you should talk to me instead of coming up with your bloody idea of "She's a bitch and she's in a relationship with the guy that I hate. So I hate her too". Don't pass judgement like you're a God.

By the way, you don't have to hide behind the Internet to talk shit about me or anyone. Just tell me to my face. You put the word "fuck" next to my name. You said you HATE me. Oh well. And Oh, why did u think I'm using this method as well, because I just wanna know how scums like you think. Now I realize, YOU DON'T THINK! Your mouth/hands move before your Brain does.

Last but not least,

Dear Non Existence, you just became a girl. Congratulations. Make a contract with Kyuubey (wait, wha-?)

Monday, April 25, 2011

Mozzarella Cheese Sticks!

So I was craving for mozzarella cheese sticks. :3
I tried to do it on my own and then....

Smoked Chicken slices with beef bacon and cheese sandwich + Mozzarella cheese stick.


The recipe:

It's seriously simple. All u need is

1 pkt of Dorito's
1 egg
1 block of mozzarella cheese

Crushed the chips, or rather try to pulverize it. LOL. Cut the cheese block into sticks, about 1.5 x 1.5cm. Dip the cheese sticks into the beaten egg and cover it with the crushed chips. Do this twice. Finally, deep fry the sh*t!

Enjoy :D

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Day 2: Going around town ( lazy post (

Day 1: Jamming Session

We jammed all night long. Surprisingly, I think I did pretty well, considering I only practiced once, right there, and I haven't picked up the guitar since 5 years ago. Everything was a bit messy but I think we did ok. For the first 3 songs, we did pretty well. For the last song "Somewhere over the rainbow" punked version, it totally sounded like... a song fit for a funeral. Well, since I just arrived, I didn't have my guitar with me so I made do with the jamming room guitar. It was fucking terrible D: like seriously. After one song, the tuning was off! Everyone was too tired to think. No output at all. We went home at around 2AM. Momo had a sleep-over at my place. We conquered the living room. mwahahaha!!!

Oh. And that night. There were 2 incidents that I can never forget for the rest of my life!!!!

1) Momo and the "Wheel-Chair"
2) The Toilet is not the Exit

=))) these incidents. XD Zutto wasurenai.

Ibanez-san :D <3



Day 2: Going around town.
After pulling an all-nighter, I couldn't feel my arms the next day. Although I have yet mastered the songs that we were supposed to play the night after, I still have "FOOD" in mind. (shiawase mono me :3 ) Also, I wanted to go to the museum. LOL! And see crocodiles and stuff like that. So I dragged Momo around with me the whole day. LOL! And i'm sure she wanted to kill me coz I didn't touch the guitar at all. :3

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Day 1: The workers are going home!

Ah man! Took me forever to compose this blog. Not like I'm busy or anything like that (well, I am quite busy lately :) but anyway, The 6 Days Getaway was asdfly Awesome! Hanging out with my two besties Ryryl and Momo was asdfasdfasdf!!! Things we saw, things we did, things we never thought we'd do. Everything is supercalifragilisticexpialidocious! Imma post some video and pictures! :D




3/4 of Dented: Taken before the 'wheel-chair' incident

Ryryl: Emo pose O_o

Momo: Doing her thing



Dented Pre-gig: Jamming session at Hau's place. Me on guitar that made the most disgusting sound. Of course it wasn't on this video =_=

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

((o(^o^)o)) -----> Ruru On Hyper Mode

Today is the 23rd of March 2011. Another day before my trip back home. I was so excited I couldn't sleep last night. (Another reason would be, I was too exhausted, I even yelled for a foot massage in the middle of the night) LOL! It's been almost three years since the last time I went home (as in my hometown). It's not very far away from where I'm residing, it's only an hour and 40 mins by plane. You must be wondering why haven't I been back for 3 years even though it's THAT near? Well, no need to dwell on the past. I'm finally ready to go home!!! ( que: L'Arc~en~Ciel - Link (KISS MIX) in the background)

I wonder if my housekey still works. LOL! I wonder how my room looks like now! I heard it looked like hell. That's what my mom said, coz she went back a couple of weeks ago. I wonder if my room still smells like lavender in-scent (I doubt it =_=). I wonder if my L'Arc's posters are still alive (maybe they faded already). And my hat collection! Oh wait! My legendary desktop. Wonder if that still works. Ahhh~~ I'm so excited. Most importantly, I wanna reminisce about the old times when I was still living in that house. About my late grandfather. About the things we cousins do when all of us were still talking to each other. LOL. Don't ask. Ok moving on.


Coincidentally, there is an event that will be held this Saturday in accordance to Earth Hour and Dented (my band) are going to perform that night! So tomorrow night (once I reach Kuching International Airport), I am scheduled to be kidnapped by Dented and I will have crash-course "Guitar for Idiots" with Momo since I haven't touched guitar since, er... forever? No I'm kidding. Since years ago. Again, I lied. I just haven't practiced for the performance. OTZ...

When we talk about my hometown, Kuching a.k.a the Nyaaa~ City, it's all about THE FOOD! Well to me it is! ahahah!! * must think of counter strategy for all the food I will consume! * I will update it all in the blog or realtime update on twitpic/twitter :D

For whatever reason it is, I can't wait to go home.

(Though Imma miss a few ppl like everyone in #Uchikazoku, Skype fellows, Yancha sekai de ichiban dai suki na akuma no ero petto Yukikun, Fuku-kaichou Peace, Idol Piro pyon, Kaichou Kururugi, Yamada sensei, Futago-chan, Nyanmaru, Gatekeeper) Le sigh.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

x(restrictionsucks)+ y(a gazillion of unhappy things) / 0(1 happy thing)

Kids: Learn the formula in life

ASDFIED = x(restrictionsucks)+ y(a gazillion of unhappy things) / 0(1 happy thing)


Hello World?!: Restrictions? This is the gdamn 21st Century!

It's almost a week since kuso kaisha banned a lot of sites including * clearsthroat * echofon-ing. I mean, I do have another option, which is my phone, demo... chotto mendokusai na.. It's troublesome to switch from doing work on the laptop and then using the phone to reply all the mentions (or to vent anger/emo-ness) I feel dead. ( oh you must be wondering why i like to use the word "Dies" "Dead" lately. Hmm... no particular reason, except, try listening to Dream Theater's "The Spirit Carries On". You'll understand.)

I used to be frightened of dying. I used to think death was the end. But that was before, I'm not scared anymore. I know that my soul will transcend.


If I die tomorrow, I'll be alright because I believe that after we're gone, the spirit carries on.


Pfft. Ok. sounds so cult-y. But anyway, I wonder why they have to do these kind of things. We're not fucking kids! Let me tell you what I think, I think it made me less productive, more stressed and freaking feel like smashing my laptop! (PFT! It's just FUCKED UP you know. I just saw Hades checking out Channel V Asia for celebs news. WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT ABOUT?!) These unfairness has gone too far. RESTRICTION in 'Hell' is not all about SITES. It's about fucking everything. Even day offs!

ASDF Level: 10/10


Hello Doomsday: Part I: In Deep Shit

Earth Hour Gig. Yes. Awesomeness. Just so happen that I'll be in Kuching that weekend. Dented is going to perform for that gig! YEAH! It's been years since my last gig. Yon, Go nen gurai? The songs that we're gonna perform are these 4:
  1. D City Rock - PSG OST
  2. I Just Threw Out The Love Of My Dreams - Weezer
  3. (have yet to decide on this ) maybe lostphropets - last summer
  4. Somewhere Over The Rainbow (Dented Version - One of them has to be Environment related song)

I'll be playing guitar for this Dented: Formation B gig. THE THING IS, I don't have a guitar to practice with and I barely have the time to. So I've been practicing on my HD Desire. Yeah, it is stupid. Don't ask. Don't even wonder. Which reminds me, I need to get a new bass. Oh, btw, the gig will be next week. Welcome To Hell.

ASDF Level: 5/10


Hello Doomsday: Part II: Tha....na....thos.....

Do you know what this character stands for: 冥王? It means: Hades. LOL.
So many work lately. So little pay (I seriously think I'm underpaid). So little time.
Maa, work isn't really that bad. It's just, it's related to (refer first part of the post)

ASDF Level: 10/10

Hello Doomsday: Part III: Naze..? Naze na no??? NAZE NA NO YOOOOOOOOOO????!!!

My Demon Pet Hates Me. I don't know what i did though. OTZ...

ASDF Level: 8/10


Hello Rakuen: After we're gone, the spirit carries on

He said something that made me happy. although it's just a simple sentence and the thought of him having thoughts about me is just HNGGGGGGGGHHHHHGHGHGHGHGHGH! (FINE. I'LL GET OVER IT) but let me stay happy for a bit, coz i know he didn't forget about me at least. The things I never thought he would do. =)))

ASDF Level: 1/10

Note: on a non-related subject, I've learned how to curse in Portuguese, thanks to my twin brother.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

春が来るから

Since I have so much time (not really =_=) on nothing, I decided to actively write stuff on my blog again. Kuso Kaisha has blocked me from echofon-ing (u know what i mean) so i'm gonna make myself a little bit productive on this side. More like, 'unlocking my creative mind'. I might as well continue writing my SDK FanFiction: The Messenger which is looooooong dead (yeah. writer's block).

By the way, today I feel like writing about the coming Spring Anime 2011. Actually, the ones I'm looking forward to watch =) There are about 19 of them. Some I'm familiar with, some I've never heard of. I'm sure that I might drop a lot out of these 19 series. Oh, by the way, at the beginning of every new season for anime, I will have a folder called "To Drop or not to drop". Miahahaha. So we'll start off the countdown:

19)Kämpfer für die Liebe
OH this. Just because I watched the first one. Not that I'm looking forward to it. Another trap anime. =_=

18)Ore tachi ni tsubasa wa nai
Something that looks interesting to watch. =)

17)Nichijou
(Have yet to get my hands on the details)

16)A Channel
(Have yet to get my hands on the details)

15)Denpa Onna to Seishun Otoko
Something interesting I guess..

14)Hoshizora e kakaru hashi
Harem-themed anime. Meh.

13)Hidan no Aria
Omoshiroi kamo....

12)30sai no hoken taiiku
THIS. I'm sure this is one funny anime! ahahaha!! So yeah, U get to be in the list!

11)Moshidora
Moshidora is a 10 episode anime (according to source: ANN). Well, it's a yakyuu-themed anime. So that's a Yes for me.
AN: The title is way too long. "Moshi Kōkō Yakyū no Joshi Manager ga Drucker no Management o Yondara" =_=" LOL!

10)Kami Nomi II
The story of the avid gamer Keima. Ah, i'm lazy to write about this. LOL. I'm sure everyone watched the first season.

9)[C] The Money of Soul and Possibility Control
Another interesting title. I hope it doesn't suck. Like Level E. The title was... WOW. and WOW, it's like my weekly dosage of trolling traps! :D (OH YES, Level E is awesome)

8)Sket Dance
Saw the manga and the art is nice. Not sure what the story is about but I think this one should be interesting. A parody-themed anime, perhaps? Actually the word 'misadventures' caught my eyes. This must be a ROFLMAO-themed anime! :D

7)Hana-saku Iroha
Tomatsu Haruka! yeay! =) Oh I love this type of anime.

6)Maria Holic: ALIVE
Oh! * Hanaji * hahahaha!!!!


Here are the TOP 5


5) Deadman wonderland
I'm sure this is going to be awesome. The title itself is already awesome. Not to mention Paku Romi and Hanazawa Kana combi. XD NICE. I didn't really read through the synopsis of this anime (nor did I Wiki-ed it =_=) I hate spoilers.


4) Steins;Gate
Play the game! Hahahaha!!! Oh well, it's been a while since I heard Tomokazu Seki's voice <3<3<3<3 and also Miyano Mamoru's voice. (what was the last one? Star Driver?) But whatever, this is one of the anime I look forward to watching in Spring =)

3) Tiger and Bunny
Don't be fooled by the title. Maa, I was like "What the F is with the title" when I looked at the image accompanying the news i checked out in ANN. It's a mecha-themed anime from Sunrise. I'll watch anything from Sunrise. LOL.
AN: Did I ever tell u that I wanna become a janitor at Sunrise? LOL.

2) Ao No Exorcist
First reason : IT's FUKUYAMA JUN and Nobuhiko Okamoto! <3 * nosebleed * Oh if you're wondering who are these two. Well they are the infamous seiyuu of Lelouch Lamperouge (FJ) and Usui Takumi (NO). Oh! There's also Naka-pan and Kamiya-san. miahahah =)))
Second reason: Demonic things are attractive =)
AN: I have yet started on the manga, but I will soon =)

1) Gintama
Need I say more. Refer posts:

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

I want that hair! ( Nakashima Mika - Yuki no Hana)

Yuki no Hana

I'm still in 'Nakashima Mika' Mode. Of course everything Nakashima Mika related is equivalent to me being in 'Hanyannnnn~~' mode. But today, this post is related to her hairstyle in 2005 when she performed Yuki no Hana during Kouhaku 2005. I love this hairstyle. She had it done when she performed GLAMOUROUS SKY acoustic in one of the shows where she was invited as guest artist (of course, I don't remember which one). And so yeah, I'm planning to do it. This hair! If any of you are curious of how it looks like, please watch the video below ( and of course! Enjoy the song!!). Saa, kitte kudasai. Douzo.




AN: Hanyannnn~ Mode: Please refer to Cardcaptor Sakura's reaction when meeting Yukito-san =)

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

I LOVE YOU!

I Love You!

Currently in my room feeling all forlorn. Haha.. "Doushite?" you may ask. Well, I think I haven't done anything good to myself for the past weeks. Been working day and night and weekends and I barely have time for myself. Been torturing my mind and soul and all I think about is to get out of here.

Today I feel worse after being blocked from echofon-ing! SUCKS! Lucky for me I still have my phone. But U know, I just felt robbed from my rights and freedom. After all, we're human not robot. If I feel like I've been treated with no mercy, then I WILL return the favour =) I'm a witch!

Well, the title for my blog today is for ME. ME, MYSELF & I. Not that I never wish to say it to someone that means the world to me, I just don't have anyone like that at the moment. I may have thought I used to have that kind of person but, well, my thoughts are always wrong. Haha.

"I Love You" is a cover of Ozaki Yutaka's ballad, by Nakashima Mika (中島 美嘉). I love both versions though. Except I feel more 'in love' when I listen to Mika-chan's version. Well I love Nakashima Mika. I love her voice, her way of singing and ultimately, she's cool. :D I used to be all "Hanyann" when I listen to this song last year because it reminded me of a certain someone. Well, it still does but I rather not dwell into it too much. Saa, kitte kudasai. Dozou.



Friday, February 25, 2011

To a dear friend.

Currently listening to 'Dream Theater - Spirit Carries On' and I was once again brought back to what happened yesterday. I was in the train when I received a text from someone. From the content, I wasn't surprised as this had happened on twitter to everyone in our circle. I decided to write this post for this friend of mind who calls it a quit in our friendship.

Yesterday, I lost a friend. Although we had a short friendship, I believed he shared a lot of things about himself to me that he wished others not to find out. It was a great honour to be trusted with so many things. I've only met him once, but we talked a lot on the net and I still think he's a great friend. He listened to me and worried about me when I wasn't well, when I was down, when I was in the worst possible condition although he was away and comforted me from far. Somehow, he decided to end any friendship/relationship with most of the people he knew on the net. Since he was the one who decided to end everything with everyone, as a friend, it is my duty to fulfill his wish as much as possible.

To this person:

Dude, this is for you. May you have the best in everything in the future. Be strong and don't give up on anything in life. Treasure the friends you have because they care about you. It was nice knowing you and thanks for listening to me and worrying about me all these time. If you believe what you're doing now is the best thing, then as a friend, I understand your wish and it's my duty to fulfill it. Lastly, HAVE FAITH IN PEOPLE. Don't let THAT ONE PERSON ruin your life and let you give up on others. There's much more to life than what it seems. And there are other people you can trust. You're a grown up so be strong, okay. Take Care Bro. You will always be my friend forever.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

2010: The Review

Let's have a good new year's wish.

Although it's a bit late, (I wished solemnly before =_= Truly sorry about that) Here, from the bottom of my heart, I wanna wish everyone who reads my blog A VERY WONDERFUL NEW YEAR and hopefully the year 2011 will be a prosperous and blessed year for all of us. Thank you for reading. =) If I ever hurt anyone from January to December of 2010, please forgive me. Hahahaha!!! Let's start a new book shall we?

2010 ended pretty bad for me. Hahaha!! It was worse than 2009 and I took it really hard for ONE whole day (yeah.. no need to dwell too much on it) and then I was back in shape, not trying to be happy but AM HAPPY. Everything that happened in 2010 stays there. I don't wish to take it with me. All the good memories, the one person that almost changed my stoic self into a 'fuwa fuwa' person, and that same person who ripped me apart must be sealed.

The first half of 2010 was rather fast moving for me. Although overall, 2010 marked the year of being 'stagnant', some things did change in my life. The Second half of 2010 was much more fun but it went down in the slump in the end. I met lots of new people, made new friends and was involve in new activities. Now, i even think of cosplaying. LOL. I know, I know. I'm not all moe and cute. I'll cosplay as a monster, maybe *coughyukionnacough* =)

Here are my review on 2010:

- When 2010 started, I sort of 'quit' being a hikikomori and was more outgoing.
- I learned who were friends and who were foes.
- Was the year of MEN = JERKS
- Was also the year of 'there is no such thing as bestfriends'
- In 2010, there's a new trend called "BLOCK AND DELETE FRIENDS FROM SOCIAL NETWORK" Gosh. HOW CHILDISH.
- I learned that being FRIENDS have TERMS AND CONDITIONS. For example: I cannot ask questions FTW. Wait, then how do we fucking communicate? WTF O_O
- PEOPLE DON'T MEAN WHAT THEY SAY. YES, THEY DON'T MEAN WHAT THEY SAY.
- Have you checked the dictionary lately? I think they removed the word "PROMISE" * shrugs *
- People change like the weather. At least weather stays constant for a couple of days.
- I made a lot of friends through twitter. Good friends =) My Nyanmarus! My Olympians! My Noa and Nano-nee friends =) Comrades. Anime/Manga lovers. I also made friends with cosplayers. I also have twitter family now hahaha.
- Most of the people I met online and then later in real life are nice people.
- I was saved by someone I met from twitter
- I was also broken by the same someone I met from twitter =(
- Madarao Hakuroku, my beloved Prince Meow died TT_____TT on Oct 4th
- New nephew - Ryuusuke =)
- I also learned there is no such thing as Honesty. People wear facade all the time. ALL THE TIME.
- Everyone is selfish. Something I learned from 2010. Not that I wasn't aware of it before. I just don't want to know and accept the fact that everyone is selfish
- I completed my Samurai Deeper Kyo Manga Series!!! This should be on top =_=
- I've become less stoic and less ignorant than before. Maybe 5% less. That' an improvement

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Happy New Year

Happy New Year to all.

How did I end my 2010? With tears. I've reached my dateline of waiting for 'the one' to forgive me. Looks like I was never forgiven in the first place. What's the point of following me when you're not talking to me right? I decided to end everything as in I got the point that we no longer can be friends.

How did i start my 2011? With tears. I feel like I'm finally free. But I don't have to wear a facade. I know myself too well that I regret what I did. However, I don't want to be hurt anymore.

Although it hurts badly, this is the only thing I can do right now. He will never want to talk to me, he will never let me redeem myself, he will never give me a second chance and I will never know what I did so bad that he hated me to the extend that he won't forgive me.

Funny, I finally realized that I have feelings for him...
And it is a bit too late for that now...

Friday, December 31, 2010

Final Post 2010: Short & Meaningful. (At least to me it is)

It's that day of the year again. Yes, the last day of December, the last day of the year and usually people will come up with new year resolution and such. Well, I used to do that. This year somehow, let's make it subtle and real. Rather than overlooking the whole year, I wish to divide it into short term goals. LOL. And for year 2011, I won't ask a lot from myself and people around me.

1) I wish to stay healthy the whole year. I hate to be sick all the time. Which means, I promise to take care of myself and I promise I will eat. hahaha!!! Yes I promise.

2) I want to make a huge turn before June 2011. Which means, I wanna do something big. I've had enough of being a midget. Not that I'll grow tall or anything of that sort lololol~, that would be a wonder.

3) I want to make amend. Especially to him. I wish that things will go back to how it used to be. That would mean a lot to me because I missed all the things we shared and the time we spent together, although it's intangible because I can't seem to forget it all and pretend it never happened. (If you're reading this, I hope you'll forgive me for everything. You know who you are)