News: Holiday Yeay.

Something good is flowing out of me. Not saying it's bad. It's overflowing with happiness and it's the same feeling as getting something after wishing for it for a long, long time. Well basically, it is like that. After getting a new job and leaving the company, I feel happier. While waiting for the transition to end, I'm lucky to have public holidays filling most of the days before I start the new job. This weekend we're leaving for a short holiday to meet a friend of mine that is from Brazil, Tang. I knew Tang from twitter and we've been friends for almost a year now. Next week we'll be leaving for another short holiday to a different place. But that's a secret. Hahahaha. Will update the info after the holiday.

Today is such a boring day. I'm at work with one colleague and everyone else is still having holidays. I should have taken unpaid leave. I really have nothing much to do at work and I'm not really into the creative writing mode either. I can't play castleville because the network blocks FB. le sigh. Ah well. I'm just gonna spend my afternoon napping I guess. Huhuhu. Kidding.

I'm back from my short holiday!!

I just got back from my short (but awesome :D) holiday, in my hometown. I've never thought a four-day trip could be so relaxing. Maybe I just needed some time for myself. But then again, I never really get to relax. Since Day 1, I was occupied with so many things, not to mention I was caught in a plan I never knew about. Although I didn't get to do many of my own things, I'm happy I get to spend time with almost all of my branch family members. And oh, did I mention the food? :D I enjoyed this trip so much, I even slept in the car because of exhaustion every end of the day!

Laksa Bowl: Yes, it's empty :D

At least, I get to spend some time with Ryl, Debra and Cyn. (Thanks Ryl for the car. I lap you!) Hung out with Chrys at Bing. Had post-birthday celebration and Meat-Fest at Hornbill Steamboat and Grill, Mee Merah (uber-delicious red Noodle at Uncle Lim), Laksa Sarawak, Kolok Mee at Ah Lai, Damit Satay (pun: be damn by the skewers. haha) I swear I gained at least 10 pounds. * runs *

Satay Damit (Not DAM*ED)

This is what we're talking about! The real shizz y'all! Uncle Lim's Mee Merah wOOOt!

When I arrived in KL, I was so excited to see Pumpkin that I left a box of Salted Terubok Fish, a bag of cheese sticks, a whole bag of awesome chicken snacks and my favourite black sweater at KL Sentral D: I know.. You don't have to say it, I am the Goddess of Clumsiness and Carelessness. I received a good scolding from Mummy the next morning. =_=

Not gonna type much but, here are some of the photos from the trip :D

Hello Steamboat and grill ( and 100 poundsss)

Dusk: Late journey to Sematan

Dawn: Late night and early rise at Sematan

Satok Wet Market: Reminded me of the late Atok

O-miyage! Photos of Fat Patches and Yukki!!!!!!!

This has got nothing to do with the trip but I miss Patches (our house-cat in Kuching) and I also wanna introduce you to my new baby, Yukki! :D

Fat Cat: Patches. She's in Kuching. Patches!! I miss youuuuu

My baby: Yukki loves to be pampered to sleep =)

P/S: I will write my book review soon. I promise. sigh...

Mozzarella Cheese Sticks!

So I was craving for mozzarella cheese sticks. :3
I tried to do it on my own and then....

Smoked Chicken slices with beef bacon and cheese sandwich + Mozzarella cheese stick.

The recipe:

It's seriously simple. All u need is

1 pkt of Dorito's
1 egg
1 block of mozzarella cheese

Crushed the chips, or rather try to pulverize it. LOL. Cut the cheese block into sticks, about 1.5 x 1.5cm. Dip the cheese sticks into the beaten egg and cover it with the crushed chips. Do this twice. Finally, deep fry the sh*t!

Enjoy :D

Part 1: Life's Theme Songs

If I am to pick theme songs for what's been going on with my life right now, I have a few. LOL. It's like an "OST of Life" or something. Except it varies in every occasion in my daily take in life. AND it changes quarterly every year. Like, it plays in my head everytime something happens or even when nothing happen. (Oh yes, my imagination works itself to the max sometimes) Take JAWS for example. (To those who do not know what 'JAWS' is can jump off the nearest cliff). Everyone knows JAWS theme song, right?

In my case, the theme songs varies depending on my mood.
(Remember, I am from Team Decepticon, not Emoticon) LOL!

Here's a list of my current "Life OST". Hee =D

1) Cool - Gwen Stefani
The only song that could calm me down when I'm back on the fence and thinking all the "What Ifs" and whatnot. This will be in my head prior to the whole brain being occupied by... * cough * next..



2) Skip Turn Step - Wakeshima Kanon
This will play in my head when I'm extremely happy. Usually, when I think of my nieces (Chib and Kosuke) and my nephew (Ryuu-chan). Reason that is, Chib loves this song to the extend of wanting it to be played everytime she's in my car. EVERYTIME. And Kosuke loves it too. So listening to this makes me happy =)



3) Skip Turn Step (Instrumental) - Wakeshima Kanon
Well, this will play when I'm in "Hanyan~" Mode. (p/s: refer Cardcaptor Sakura Anime) And Oh.. I feel like playing the bass and violin part whenever i listen to this. I tried the violin part though. The bass part hmm... it's slow but it sounds awesome! It's the best song to listen to when u feel all "Kira kira" and "fuwa fuwa" inside. And when u feel all daisies and sunshine~ Hanyannnnn~ XD



4) Cassis - the GazettE
This is a sad song but it's a beautiful piece (for a VK band). Last year, this category was filled in by 'Kousai' by Alice Nine. Cassis only plays in my head when I'm terribly down (like.. all the time, what do u mean "ONLY PLAYS IN MY HEAD WHEN. . ." Aki?)



5) 4 in the morning - Gwen Stefani
Well, you know... all the things that happen all night long and make u stay up til 4 in the morning. The good, the bad, the wonderful, the worst, the pretty, the ugly. Mostly, what makes you happy. This song gives me strength to go on and not to call it a quit. It keeps reminding me never to give up and to hold on to it.



6) TIME CAPSULE - Last Alliance
This usually comes when I'm in "I hit rock bottom! But I know I can survive!" =_=
Sorry but no PV or mp3 for this m(_ _)m

7) When Will I See You Again - The Three Degrees
Only happens when I'm in the car; Partially-Hanyan~ XD


Will be continued...

Entropy at work: A good girl

Should post this to some weekly talent competition. LOL! THIS IS RANDOM!! Not related to anyone dead or alive. Thanks For Reading.

A good girl
by erma

A good girl will always smile to the things she adores

A good girl will know when to seek and when to ignore
A good girl will not let go easily
A good girl will pout when she misses that somebody
A good girl will do what it takes to win that someone's heart
A good girl will sulk for the reasons they had to be apart
A good girl will compromise and tolerate
A good girl will always believe in fate
A good girl will cry and then recover
A good girl will know when to say "It's over"
A good girl will nod when there is a good reason behind something
But a good girl is also a mere human being; a fragile little thing
A good girl will know when to quit, although it hurts and there is no cure to it
A good girl will know when to quietly leave, but stands tall to what she believes
Therefore a good girl needs a good man
The one she knows she wants to be with, the one who is able to withstand her, the only one who can

Training is over. Now back to work =_=

Where have I been...

I have been away from my base for training at IBM Innovative Centre last 3 days and man, was the training interesting. Learned so much about technical stuff (which was not really related to my current job) but was damn interesting. I began to think I should write to IBM and work for them. LOL. Like any other leading IT company, IBM too has what seems to be a hectic working environment (So I thought, when I first arrived at the Centre). What made me think that way? You have to queue up to get to the lift. And everytime you get your chance to go in the lift, it's always packed. What makes me more interested in IBM was, everytime I got in the lift there's a 90% chance that I'll bump into a Japanese (or Korean =_=). Wait.... now that I think about it, maybe I should work in Japan instead.

People I met...

So during the training, I became friends with the lady who sat next to me. She's a very nice person, buys me vending machine coffee everyday, helped me with some lab stuff. Ahaha!! Ok, no. Not because she buys me coffee everyday. She is a nice person. We were in the same wave once we started to talk. She's married with a kid. I seriously thought she was a Malay until the final day when we went to Shojikiya together and when she was paying for her stuff, she was speaking Chinese to the cashier. I was shocked. Her Malay language was perfect! Perfect Slang. Perfect intonation. Perfect sentence formation. Much much much better than my Malay. =_= * shocked * Then only I asked what her last name was, and then, yes, I was 100% sure, she is Chinese. =)

What I miss most...

This would definitely be the 1 1/2hour lunch time where I get to eat Japanese food and watch Athrun Zala at home. Since IBMIC is only 5 minutes drive from my loft, I decided to go back and watch Anime before going back to lab at 1.30pm. Apart from it would be eating all the nice Japanese food everyday and the late start and early end routine. OH! And also, the vending machine of course. hahaha!! And definitely, listening to people in IBM (Malaysians especially) speaking Japanese and Korean like it's our national language. It amazes me T____T Well, I wish that person would speak (as in verbally) Japanese to me, I would definitely love to hear it =)

Things people take to the furthest extend

I remember way back before we have all these social networking sites and Internet was not as amusing as now, the only way people bitch about others was to gossip privately among a group. Hahahaha! If they have guts, they would write them a letter (very high school-like * rolled eyes *) and bitch about them in there. And if they have bigger guts, they would definitely face them on and well.. catfight!

Since there are things like mySpace, Friendster and Facebook, we can see that many fights/quarrels/lawsuits break just because one can't stand the other just by reading status posted on each other's wall. A friend began to call it FaceBITCH instead, because that's where people bitch about each other PUBLICLY most of the time nowadays. So many virtual crimes happened from these social networking sites. People may intentionally or unintentionally posted things that could offend others in so many ways. Of course, nobody's pointing fingers at anyone, but since these social networking sites aren't controllable and the Internet are uncontrollable and humans are well.. never will be controllable, what can be done?

If you read the newspaper daily, you would at least come to at least one news about fraudulent especially the ones from the Internet. One which involve social networking site are mostly about Women and Men who seek for attention to fulfill desire (whatever desire it is, I'm not gonna go further explaining these stupid things). There was this one case I read (on the newspaper, of course) about this one lady who offer sex service for beasts men who are interested or more like desperate. (According to the report on the newspaper) On her profile, she posted sexy alluring photos of her i mean of "her" to attract customers. From the newspaper, a cover-baik-punya-pervert dude said, he was trying to trap the girl by asking her to meet him for service. He even bargain with her about the price and then banked-in some cash to her account. He then went to the place they were supposed to meet but she didn't show up. (Seriously, who would fall for that kind of trick? Maybe the cover-baik-punya-pervert dude who was trying to trap her was too ugly). Anyway, turned out that the "babe" that offered the service was well.. a big size attention seeker who really has nothing to do except trick perverted guys who also has nothing to do because both have nothing to do except abuse the good use of Internet. Why would anyone, do such a thing? For money? For attention? And then? Is it satisfying? Is it good to trick perverts, I mean people? We were given all these facilities not to do stupid things (yeah.. I like to use the word stupid because I'm trying not to swear too much) like these morons? Have your parents not teach you about manners?

That's one case. There are plenty more out there which are outrageously, beyond what you call, normal thinking. Another one which also caught my attention (because some people are born with their brain on their xxx) are the ones where two people met online, online dating, met each other (or not) and then the guy/girl has huge corporation and then he/she went traveling, then was mugged, then asked for money because he/she need to see clients and pay whatever shit. And because of foolishness love, they would do anything where they would bank in the large amount of money into the "significant other"'s account and then in the end, they never hear from them again. (OK. that was long) Again, what's wrong with these people? I mean, not everyone's like me. Ignorant, stoic, indifferent. Right. Let's not start. But still, how can so many, seriously THAT MANY women especially, get fooled by people you don't see physically? First of all, how can you be in a relationship with people you can't physically see, touch? * shook head *

Speaking of the things that can offend people intentionally/ unintentionally. Lately, they have been soooo many cases where people love to write offensive things on their profile. Things that emit racism for example. People would say this race is better than this. Or stuff like that. But think about it, when you say it like that, does that make YOU a better person? Why can't people see each other as human? We are mere creation of God. Why can't people stop labeling people?

There are just some random thoughts I have for today. =_=" But I'm just too sleepy to continue and I wanna watch my Anime. XD
Besides, I don't really like to talk shit about other people. I'm just making a general opinion.
Until then.

Entropy At Work: Why Do I Read Manga?

I've reached the quarter century mark in my life but I'm still a kid at heart ( I still haven't grown my 4 wisdom teeth okay). I love watching Anime, collecting gunpla, collecting Anime DVDs, buying and reading Japanese magazine of which only related to Anime stuff [for now] (which 3/4 of the time needs my full attention on drooling over 2D characters with rare poses and another 91/4 to translate what was written in it) and above all would be buying and reading Manga. Sometimes I wonder why do I love reading Manga so much? I love reading books but Manga has extremely drool-able and nose bleed-able bishounen characters visual aids.

Here are some (what I thought) good reasons:

1).....
2).....
3).....

Really.. I just can't give any REASON why I love reading Manga. Do I have to have a reason for it? If you love something, just go and grab it!

P/S: This post is rather stupid. But Who Cares?! :D

I'll recommend some good Manga in the next post.

Translation:
bishounen - extremely beautiful (yes i mean beautiful) young men
manga-ka - artistes that draw manga

Update: Countdown :D

Well, I owe this to Take-kun. He's been asking about my current eyecandies/mansluts countdown. Hahaha.. It is disturbing when your only therapy failed you. LOL. (They are my sleeping remedy).
So here goes. Countdown!

10) Hei ( :D He should be in this list... )
9) Lelouch Lamperouge (OMG... I'm not a 'P'. I just love his character!)
8) Saotome Alto (OMG! Please... I need to watch the movie A.S.A.P)
7) Chiaki Shinichi (O_o....... Please. watch Finale)
6) Heiwajima Shizuo (He's just... too cool. Seriously. I love him)
5) Hijikata Toushiro~ (Oh goshh!! Don't ask me.. I don't have any good reason for this)
4) Onime no Kyo (Everytime I listen to the Drama CD, I will flail like a retard. lol)
3) Sebastian Michaelis! Yeay! (You're always at heart and will always be my #1 Manslut)
2) Date Masamune! Yeay! (You didn't move darling :D )
1) Sakata Gintoki! Yeay! (I'm so glad Gintama will continue! I cried when they say 201 is the last eps)

The Ultimate Number 1, Number 1... will always and forever be Rufus Shinra <3

My reaction?

UPDATE: Life at the end of the Year 2009

1) It's been crazy lately. With my ever-changing moods and the indecisive heart and mind. And the ever-changing thoughts and ideas. And the work. And the relationships, friendships. (skinship?? hahah. i just wanted to type that.) I've been an ass to myself and to everything and everyone. But I never put any subjects of why things have been that way out of sight. And anyone who knows me well know that I'm the one who remembers shitty things that have been done to me and shitty things that I do or did to ppl.

2) Work. Oh Work is just Work. It's never changing. Work can never be less. Work is always and will always be work.

3) Lately, I have been spending a lot of time with myself. I miss that. I always try to find time to pamper myself n I really needed that. Especially when people I am (was) close with are (were) not around me (anymore).

4) I'm not very responsive to anything now. My "No-Feeling-Disease" has been worst. Even towards my boy-friend. (ok. there is a meaning to why there is a "-" there)

5) The fact that I planned on going back to Kuching has been changed to a hateful desire. Hahahah!!!

6) My Samurai Deeper Kyo's collection is almost complete. Another 2 more volumes (or another tankoubon) . But we (the SDK manga collectors of English Version) are disappointed with the missing covers for Volume 36. (T_______T)

7) Don't worry, when I can find time to write about 2009 review, I will write. For now I'm too busy with so many things. I remembered someone asked me "What are you so busy with??" Well, unlike you who has sooooo much free time, I'm different. I'm putting a fullstop to that so that another big stupid argument will not happen.

8) This year, I was given a few year planner for free. I mean. Last year I had to buy them. O_O

9) Grandma is here. Again. :D

10) I'm doing something to my hair again before the new year. Why? Because I am bored with it.

Part 1: Life is about taking risk and chances - go jump in the fire and die...

... and then relive like the phoenix....


O-hisashi buri desu!

I haven't got the time to write, been busy with life (not really...). Well, those few weeks that I was gone were filled with joy and laughters! I've been enjoying life, though it's crappy and most of the time it sucks, I did cherish it. More like struggling towards happiness. But it's all good. Anyway, Here are some of the things I did during my "sudden-holiday-because-my-youth-is-crumbling" weeks..

Wander aimlessly on a Friday afternoon

Saturday's breakfast @ Starbucks

Walking the early Sunday

Going Places unintentionally

Indulge good good food everyday

Will update more when i have the time..

adieu~

akira.

Dearest Love - To the ones I used to love

Dearest Love

I can never say it out loud. I’m such a loser. So Toshi (a good friend of mine) told me that I should express it through here. Here’s to all my dears.

Dearest Love # 1,

I know you loved me and love me still. I thank you for what you’ve given me. You tried so hard to give me everything, but it’s just not right. It can never be right. I do love you, but not as far as it ever went. I didn’t mean to brick the distance between us but you, you build an obvious fence to keep me away.

I wish we could understand each other a little better.

Dearest Love# 2,

I wouldn’t mind laying next to you everyday and listening to everything you say all night long. But it’s not the same anymore since now all that you talk about is your significant other. I will forgive you for your selfishness but I will not forgive you for your abuse. It’s just plain mean.

This will be the end.

Dearest Love #3,

You may be the one I love most, but I can’t be bias. Now that I feel there’s no connection between us, we should just bid farewell to our wonderful relationship. You hurt me too much I can’t take it. You hurt me with your silly face and beautiful smiles and your wonderful stories and your bright eyes. You hurt me worst when I realized all your words are lies Everything about you were just some big fat lies. Here’s to the end of us, cheers.

Dearest Love #4,

I thought I can never live without you. You were a part of me. Now you never exist. And just so you know, I was really looking forward to that day. But I knew before you told me the verdict. You left me cold in the water, again.

Until today.

Dearest Love # 5,

It seems that after all these years, I managed to finally forgive you. But it’s not you that I want. You’re just another challenge in this race. You might be one of the many obstacles, and you might be the ONLY key. Bless me.

THAT WAS CHEEEESY. ( hid under the table)

:D

Weiß und Schwarz

I'm not really a fan of Gothic Shoujo/Loli shota anime or manga. (Ok. I lied) I mean. I 'm not a big fan but I don't mind reading or watching them. Last year, I was so into this series called The Earl Cain Series by Kaori Yuki. It has two parts, the first part of the series is called: The Cain Saga. The second part is called: Godchild. Though I only read the second half of the series, I can say it's damn good. (RIFF~~ *drools* )

Pic1: Cain Hargreaves of Godchild (volume 1 manga cover)

As always, I'm not a victor of heroes department. I always love characters who are not on the front page of every manga cover (except for Samurai Deeper Kyo, of course). P/S:Who doesn't like Kyo can go jump off the nearest cliff. Hahahah!! Ooopss.. another OOT from me. Tokorode, back to the main topic.

Recently, I've been reading another manga called Kuro Shitsuji or in English, The Black Butler and it is serialized in GFantasy. (SEBASTIAN!!!!~ *Drools* *Faints* *DIES*). Though it's not in tankoubon version yet for English translation, but scanlation version is just fine for me (Thank You to those who works hard on the scans! Good JOB!) I've been following the anime too and I love it. (Sebastian MOVESSS!!!!!!) *clears throat* Shitsurei shimashita... (*I won't mention his name again i promise... NOT*) Anyway, since Kuro Shitsuji is also set during the Victorian Era, it kinda made me realize the similarity to the manga Godchild.

Pic 2: Kuroshitsuji - Ciel Phantomhive and his loyal butler, Sebastian

Here's a bit of both Godchild and Kuro Shitsuji and the similarities of both manga.

1) Setting:
Both Godchild and Kuro Shitsuji are set during the Victorian Era in England.

2) All about the boy...
Both Godchild and Kuro Shitsuji focused on the young Hakushaku~ (though I guess Kuro Shitsuji focused more on... Sebastian~ Sebastiannnnnn~~~!!! >.< *clear throats* Sugi...) Godchild: Cain Hargreaves Kuro Shitsuji: Ciel Phantomhive

3) The HOT Butler
Good-looking, drop dead gorgeous, highly skilled, mysterious, hot BUTLER.
Godchild: Riffael Raffit
Kuro Shitsuji: Sebastian Michaelis

Pic 3: Riff and Cain of Godchild (Volume 5 manga cover)


Pic 4: Sebastian and Ciel of Kuroshitsuji

4) Jack The Ripper
Both Godchild and Kuro Shitsuji featured Jack The Ripper case.

5) Seriously freaky dudes.
Godchild: The Coffin Maker
Kuro Shitsuji: The Undertaker

6) Both Young Hakushaku reminded me of L'Arc~en~Ciel
Godchild: Godchild's main character, Cain Hargreaves really reminded me of Hyde of L'Arc~en~Ciel. I don't know which part, most probably the fashion sense. Hahaha.. Ah well, that's my opinion.
Kuro Shitsuji: Ciel Phantomhive from Kuro Shitsuji.... Ciel-chan, his name already hit me like a thunder :D

7) Boys acting as girls
Both Ciel and Cain dressed up as girls.

8) The Butler has another story
At least I know what's Riff's secret and his dark side (the real Riff). I'm not so sure about Sebastian, he's still a mystery. All I know about him is he's a demon.

9) The unwanted child
Godchild: Earl Cain was born from incestuous relationship of his father Alexis Hargreaves and his sister.
Kuro Shitsuji: Still a mystery. But through out the story Ciel Phantomhive is known to be an unclean child.


That's as far as the similarities I could collect, for now. I'm kinda on hiatus... With Kuro Shitsuji manga. There are so many things to read.... Hahaha... And I start collecting D.Gray-Man already. Though I already watched the series, it still doesn't satisfy me. I will need to re-read the manga and wait for the tankoubon version. I'll look into it later (Kuro Shitsuji that is) and I will hunt for more....

"Watashi wa akuma de, shitsuji desu kara....."


Note:
All graphics on Godchild are taken from Viz Media website.
All graphics on Kuroshitsuji are taken from various sources from the Internet

Being mean or just being honest?

Giving out an opinion about something is not as easy as thinking about it. It's either you say what you mean or say what needs to be said. Most people think that when giving out an opinion you have to think about how the receiver feels. But if that is so, why ask for opinion in the first place? Why do people who are asked about something needs to think about how to say to the person asking so that every detail being said will not hurt the other party?

Here's a simple normal case:

Someone you know asked you whether she should break up with her two-timing, 10 years boyfriend. The guy's been asking her to give him time because he loves her, and yet. And the girl loves him that she's willing to give him time.


Option 1: You tell her to think about it.... drag her deeper in misery. Because u think they look good together. And he is a nice guy, maybe it's just a misunderstanding. bla bla bla


Option 2: Just say it straight. Dump the dude. The misery only last a few days. There are many creatures in the lake other than the Lochness Monster. Not because u don't like the guy. Coz If it's you , you'd do that.

But what about how she feels? She's a good friend of yours. And maybe she's expecting a 'backsupport' from you when she's suffering. Maybe the guy will get back to her eventually. But what if he cheats again? (Please ignore any stoic traits) And if she listens to you, what if what you said was the opposite of what happens?

Maybe there should be an option 3. Like, keep quite about it and be the mean friend.

That's just a simple example. What if people starts asking you what to do with their life? Or how to live their life? Maybe we should start digging a big hole and hide in it. Hahaha...

Til next time.

The Fourth Avenue Cafe

The Fourth Avenue Cafe.

I first heard it on Rurouni Kenshin (Samurai X). I've never knew L'Arc~ en~Ciel back in 1998. I just knew the song, it's a freaking cool Japanese Song. And that time, I only heard it on TV, once a week on Saturday. Despite the hardship of waiting and missing episode(s) of Rurouni Kenshin on TV, I still managed to at least record it on tape (and it sounded like an elephant trying to sing with it's trunk full of boogers) aftermath. I have no idea how to get a Japanese song from the Internet, (heck, I don't even have a computer back then).

Mon, (Dented's Lead guitarist) was (is? was? is?..... still is ) a huge fan of L'Arc~en~Ciel and GLAY (and anything japanese) back in high school. She was the one who introduced me to Japanese Rock back in 2000 (when I just got a PC) and lent me an MP3 CD full of Japanese songs (God knows where she got these things). She tried to brain-washed me into listening to GLAY, but i just C-A-N-T. Hahha.. (ok.. maybe 2 songs). I only remembered 3 songs that I was so addicted to,

1) Again, The Fourth Avenue Cafe,
2) Heaven's Drive and
3) Gackt - Saikai ~story~

That's not the point of what I'm trying to write here.. hahaha

Actually, I'm saving up to get myself a new bass guitar.

Ibanez - GSR 200-BK/JB/TR is what I have in mind so far
Image from: Bentley Music

I've been dying to play The Fourth Avenue Cafe on bass. I mean... I know I suck (ok.. maybe not that bad) but I've been watching videos of those who played this bass line and they are AWESOME. Maybe not as good as Tetsu, but still, they managed to pull it off good. I was thinking either to get a bass or a guitar, but I guess I should get the bass first so I could continue what I have left. My skills are seriously rotten.

I'm not sure when I'm able to get the above mentioned, but I'm working on it. The ecomony now.... Gahh... I hope I'm able to get it by next year. (Or someone, please be kind enough to give me a PS3 that Ibanez for my birthday! LOL)

Signing off~

Blegh.

10 is enough to kill time:

1) I eat brinjals at least 3 times a week.
Explanation: I just love it. It's a must. Period.

2) When I watched 'The Gorgon' the other day a real snake was on it's way gliding through the window of my apartment. Reaction: Screamed and ran. Action: Hid in parents' room. Result: Dad went out and killed the serpent.
Explanation: I was laughing at Medusa's head coz the snakes were fake. And here comes the hero-sepent (must be a dude, since Medusa's a chick) gliding with vengeance. Fuhh.... kimochi warui.

3)I dreamed I ate a box of fresh strawberries and was happy about it.
Explanation: The CAKE. The Was Not Meant To BE Cake. It's because they put strawberries on it. And NO I did not eat it.

4)I've been hanging with Chib a lot lately.
Explanation: She's got less attention from her parents. They will have a new born soon. Me? Less Attention from my parents. They have Chib.

5)I suddenly remembered that I was once forced to join "Pertandingan Nasyid Antara Bahagian" with Chrys.
Explanation: The organizer knew my grandmother and we could sing. Or was it because we rajin mengaji?

6)Whenever I played random L'Arc CD Mix it always started with "The Fourth Avenue Cafe"
Explanation: What?? It's a must 'No. 1 Song'

7)I'm back to my hikikomori mode.
Explanation: Other people have other people and they don't need me.

8)My brother and I have a definite distinct of black or white persona.
Explanation: His Black is the opposite of defiant when it comes to people he loves. As for me, my white is the exact definition of blankness.

9)My SDK collection is almost complete. And I realized volume 33 and 34 are very thin and light. Must Handle with care.
Explanation: Probably economic recession or recycled paper.

10)I'm very hurt.
Explanation: . . .

Saturday Night's Dinner

Monday was a holiday and I had a long weekend. Usually, I won't bother about what to eat since eventually I'd be waking up late and sleeping early on holidays. Friday night, my brother invited me to Sakae Sushi with his family. Although I had already ordered dinner and was waiting for the delivery, I was thinking I should go. It's been a while since I had Salmon Sashimi (*starry eyes*) . It was good. Even though I hate to say I really despise the current shoyu at Sakae Sushi.

I went to Tesco and I decided to cook dinner on Saturday and invited my brother and his family to my apartment. I haven't been in the kitchen since my mom was here and I thought I must do some cooking or else my skills will be gone with the wind. Although I started at 4.30pm, I must say I did pretty well and everything was done before 7. I made Roasted Beef, Baked Potatoes and Savoury Rice.

Baked Potatoes ala Akira

Recipe for the Baked Potatoes:

Ingredients:

3 cleaned potatoes
2 teaspoons of dry basil
2 teaspoons of dry thyme
3 small cubes butter
canola oil
salt

Wash the potatoes and deep-cut potatoes (do not slice it) . Drizzle some canola oil on top of the potatoes and sprinkle dry basil, dry thyme and salt. Put the cube butter on top of each potatoes and wrap them in foil. Bake in the oven (200^oC / 392^oF) for about an hour. Easy Breezy.

Roast Beef ala Akira

This one's easy breezy too:

Recipe for the Roast Beef:

Ingredients:

500 gm australian beef
2 teaspoons dry oregano
2 teaspoons dry thyme
2 teaspoons Italian herbs
salt and pepper
olive oil
1 teaspoon garlic powder

Mix all together. Put in the fridge for 24 hours. Then later in the oven for about 1 1/2 hour, (200^oC / 392^oF). Slice the beef when it's done. Easy??

Savoury Rice ala Akira

This ones pretty easy too:

Recipe for the Savoury Rice:

Ingredients:

2 cups of fragrant Rice (lightly washed)
1 bulb onion (chopped)
2 carrots (cubed)
chopped basil leaves
melted butter
salt
4 cups water


Fry the rice together with chopped onion and carrots with the melted butter. Add in the chopped basil leaves and add water slowly. Put the lid on and leave it on slow fire. I'm not sure how long it takes to cook this but, I assume maybe 20 mins.

You can try if you want. At least I know it's not poisonous. Hahaha!

Reading Situation and Having a G*D*mn Good Timing

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I don't know about you , but I am one of those people who actually do not observe my surroundings. Yup. I don't. Sometimes I'd be in a place, empty-minded and then I'd go "What am I doing here?". Eventhough I'm such an idiotic piece of wood a blockhead, sometimes I do read situation perfectly. Sometimes.

Someone I know told me that I've always do things that people want me to do as a favor without noticing that I'm actually just being used as an excuse. People don't actually care about what shit I'm in as long as they get what they want. I've never actually thought of it that way until I was told, then I came to my senses. I've always thought that doing a favor means, you're helping people without asking for anything in return. I've always been thought that way and it has always been this way ever since 1984 (for me).

But she also told me this: "Doing someone a favor means you're nice. Being used as an excuse means you're stupid. You don't have to think about being given anything in return. Those people who owes you shit should know."

I was surprised that someone actually thought about these things for me. I mean, someone's thinking about my feelings. I realized that I didn't want to feel like that because it's not right. And being an ignorant fuckhead someone who's always put aside the ridiculous thought, I finally understood what she meant. I've encountered this before and it's been going on and on and on and she said maybe I should put a stop to this. I told her, I should not put a stop to anything because nothing is wrong. It's just maybe those people should know how to read situation.

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Girl: I can't believe this
Boy: It's not what you think
Girl: She sat on your lap
Boy: I'm serious. It's not what you think.
Girl: I hate you
Boy: But it's not what you think

-stare. long stare. Looooong stare-
Boy holds girl's face, leaned forward -

Dad: There you are! Let's go home!
Girl: =_="

Hahaha.... Happened to me before. I perceived this as "being saved from having a future that is going to be painful". When I look back, I'm thankful that it never happened. (I was a bit disappointed though). Hehehe.

How would you react to this situation?

And I secretly wanted it to happen somehow. It's not wrong to dream. =P


Think about it...

Getaway. Hideaway.

What makes someone feel useless?


Ah well, I feel that most of the time. Though I know it's bad for my mental health at least I don't have to be fucked up trying to impress every single living creature in the whole world. What makes me feel useless? First is when I'm at work. Give me 30 mins to solve a bug. When I can't figure it out, I'll have these thoughts in my mind "All the 4 1/2 years hard work are thrown in the gutter", "Ah... am I just plain stupid?", "Ah... Tennen baka dakara". And it goes on and on and on til I get a migraine, white-faced, feverish and waiting to explode. But it's only me, that's how i get my adrenaline pumping to solve something. When I feel used and abused.... Yeah. That's the worst. Being used is useless? yeah... Useless because I'm too nice. (Really now?)



What makes someone feels like shoving a broom up someone's a-hole?

• Being irritated is one.
• Other than that is being told of things I don't bother to know. You know, things like who are in American Idol or stuff. (Maybe it only works for an ignorant walking ball of wrath like myself).
• Other than that is, when I somehow (accidentally) bother about things or being concerned about anything and being shoved aside. That kinda hurt.
• Also, being cornered with bothersome questions when you know it's written all over my face "Do I look like I give a shit?". Hmm.. Oh... there are more.
• When an idiot actually made the biggest mistake in his/her life (a.k.a a smart ass in studies, an idiot in life, a total loser) tried to make me look miserable in front of the entire world.
• When someone talks too much about their brain and how smart they are and are quite talented of being a jerk half the time.
• and the list goes on...

I totally suck . . .

• at quarelling. When I'm being attacked with words, I'd be speechless
• at controlling my temper (Saint Angst?)
  
• when coming up with excuses and lying
  
• . . . enough already...

I'd be jumping up and down like an idiot and running around the house naked(feet)...

• when new SDK volume's at Kinokuniya
• when my anime list is updated
• when I bought new books/anime/manga

10 ways to quick cash:

1. newspaper routing?
2. garage sale?
3. sell your brother's skateboard collection
4. sell the XBOX
5. be a pusher?
   
6. break a leg and claim insurance (haahahha!!)
7. help your neighbour to mow her lawn
   
8. bake cookies?
9. sell your Gundam (desperate measures)
10. sell you baby brother/sister/niece/nephew

what a dope... Warning: Do not try all the above.

Mizu no sei da

I don't remember how many times it happened... but all I know is that it will happen every year. And last night, it happened again. It's total suicide I tell ya. It began with the feeling of hatred. The 'tap.. tap' sound ticked me off. I was busy preparing for today's lunch. However, the tapping sound really got me into 'killing mode'. As usual, when the killing mode is switched on, I'm a walking ball of wrath. I ran to the toilet and then "BAMMM". The next thing i know, I was on the floor, all wet in my pajamas.

Yeap. I slipped.

On Monda, Negishi told me that he's quitting. And he'd tender his resignation. I was damn sad. Seriously. My cubicle mate, my anime-mate. I'm gonna be totally bored when Negishi leaves. Tori-san told me that another colleague is quitting soon. There less than 10 people in the office now. How sad is that. I'm sure everyone will be in burakku moddo (BLACK MODE). Especially me.

Ah man.... I've lost my mood to write now..

Until next time.