Some life and anime update (Part 1)

I have a bit of time today since it's my last day in this team. Obviously I'm not swarmed with work and I'm just sitting here at my cubicle doing nothing. I decided not to bring my tablet today because I thought I would have a gazillion of things to read (work from the new role and stuff) or perhaps, start packing my things and move to my new seat. But well, my new seat is not ready and they need to get my phone line there. 

So, my feelings about this whole moving to a new role. Happy of course, that I'm finally seated in a better position. Not that I don't like my current role, I do. It's just that, I probably want to drive myself to my full potential and move forward. Lol. Ok. What is all that bullshit. Let's not talk about that. FYI, will be reporting to a new boss tomorrow. Good luck to me.

Today, I thought I wanted to write a bit about Anime that I've been following this season. I know it's a bit too late, but well, here goes.
This season (Spring 2016) I've been following a number of good anime (according to me that is) and I'm still sulking with the disappearance of Gintama.

1) Re:Zero kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu

Image from: MyAnimeList

My husband really likes this series. It kinda reminded me of that Tom Cruise movie, what was it call? Edge of Tomorrow was it? This is about a boy, Natsuki Subaru who got transported to a different world where he dies numerous time. Why? Go watch. This anime is still has a bucketload of mysteries that still needs to be uncover. As usual, I don't want to give out too much info for those who has not seen it. For those who are following this anime, let me know what you think.

2) Koutetsujou no Kabaneri

Image from: MyAnimeList

So I heard the director for this anime is the same one as the one who directed Shingeki no Kyoujin. As far as I know (correct me if I'm wrong) this is anime original and there is no manga for this (so far). This series is set on the island country Hinomoto where a mysterious virus appears and the infection transforms humans in to Kabane (a zombie-like beings with steel hearts i-dont-know). So humans hide themselves in fortresses against the threat of these Kabanes. Well, of course, like any other stories, there's always a plot twist and between humans and kabanes, there is Kabaneri, humans that are infected by this virus but has managed and not been fully transformed into Kabane. You don't have to ask, these are usually the heroes. Go watch. It's a good series.

3) Boku no Hero Academia

Image from: MyAnimeList

Been hearing a lot about Boku no Hero Academia being the anime that is on par or relatively on par with Naruto. I don't know man... I never read the manga and I'm starting out with the anime and I found it... well, just okay. Maybe I'm wrong. it's only at Episode 10 anyway. I would try reading the manga and hope it redeems itself better in manga. If you're wondering, this anime is about this boy Izuku who has no natural quirk (superpower) but wants to be a superhero. Yeah..

4) Bungou Stray Dogs

Image from: MyAnimeList

One of the most awaited series for me every week. Mystery and supernatural (bishounen.duh.) This series features Nakajima Atsushi who was kicked out of his orphange, on the brink of starvation and was rescued by a man who was attempting suicide (Dazai-san) Dazai is a member of a special detective agency and the team consists of individuals with supernatural powers. Well yeah, i mean, just go watch. Really. And oh, Dazai's seiyuu is Mamoru Miyano!!! 

5) Sakamoto desu ga?

Image from: MyAnimeList

Bahahahaha!! Ok this sits next to Level E. Seriously. It's so random, I died everytime I watched it. I'm also reading the manga now and I love the fact that everytime I feel shitty, this lifted my spirit. Hahaha. Watch it, people! P/s: Fuuri said, Sakamoto is Bayonetta's son! HAHAHAHA


Will continue in Part 2

Thank you Pumpkin! I love you ❤

Look at what my baby gave me :D ❤

The sweetest thing.

I have until the day before my birthday next year to use it! hahahaha!!!

Awhhh sweetheart, you're the best and I love you Pumpkin! ❤

A/N: "Kupon Bersama @irudono 1 hari" read as "1 day with @irudono Coupon"

My Read: Irresistable Forces by Brenda Jackson

27th September 2011! Happy 13th Birthday Google!! :D

I didn't know Google was born today! LOL ME.

Anyway, today's post is about this e-book I'm currently reading, titled Irresistible Forces by Brenda Jackson.

Image from kobo.com

How did I come across this book? Well, there's this app in my phone called Kobo eReader and from this app, you can actually buy amazing eBooks or even download them for free! I'm not sure if they have this for iPhone or Blackberry. Now, let me tell you something amusing. I have an amazing Android smartphone, HTC Desire HD. It has an amazingly huge (for a phone, of course) 4.3" touch screen and it's perfect for me who have problem reading small fonts. LOL. It runs on Android version 2.3.3 with HTC Sense version 2.1. Technical wise... I don't think I bother too much about it. But what's important is, it's easy to use, very friendly and the best part is, most of the apps are free! (Now, now, I know I've been using this phone for over 9 months and I only bother to talk about it now.. ) Again, let's go back to the eBook that I'm currently reading.

Basically, I've only read Chapter 1, and it's intriguing, I can tell you that much. I've not read the synopsis too coz you know what they say, don't judge a book by it's cover (well, literally and technically, the synopsis usually is written behind the book =_=) From what I've read so far, the story revolves around a successful and beautiful woman named Taylor Steele who has a desire to conceive a child but not get tangled up in a thing called marriage. The thing is, it's not just about shagging up and get knocked up by anyone. Taylor Steele has been eyeing on a potential father for her child and he is non other than the most eligible, rich, good looking Dominic Saxon. Her plan is to have this "business proposition" presented to Dominic in which she believes that they both have the same goal, for her to conceive a child and for him to father a child and by this she plans out a trip to the Caribbean solely for the purpose of ...... okay, enough preview.

If you want to read more about this, get the book. Or if you have an Android phone, you can conveniently download it from the Reader app for free :D I will continue reading it after work. Hehe. Enjoy!

Again, Happy Birthday Google!! Tomorrow will be my turn! :D

Bon Jovi - Thank You For Loving Me

Good Morning World! It's 7:38am and I have to admit, it's too early to wake up because it's a Sunday! It's a beautiful Sunday!!!! Anyway, I just got back from Ipoh, a random adventure I must say. LastFriday at 4pm I suddenly felt like buying a one way ticket to Ipoh because I missed that certain someone really bad. (Of course he wasn't amused with the whole thing after being trolled. LOL. Sorry dear) I stayed at Mama's (PsychoKuukie) place on Saturday morning (yes, morning), hung out with her for a while and then killed time at Jusco Kinta City, playing Wordsearch at Coffee Bean while waiting for that certain someone to finish work =)

I've never done this kind of things before. LOL. I'm a poor unromantic and hahaha, after yesterday, I promise I will not do this kind of things anymore without telling him. (I don't wanna come between a man and his plans =_=) Ah well, what's done is done.

Btw, hahahaha I actually wanna post this song for that special someone. (And for everyone else, enjoy this song because Bon Jovi is damn hot awesome. XD

AFT: Away From Twitter

So I have been missing from the Internet world for a bit. =_= This time, I took a break from Twitter. Unbelievable, I know. Hahaha. I used to have this "can't live without Twitter" thing but it faded. "Why?" I wonder. Twitter is addictive, I know. To me, my everyday routine would be to say "Ohayou!" to all my followers on Twitter, and that is the first thing I'll do even before I brush my teeth in the morning. And then, I'd be replying mentions (overdue would be at least within 12 hours =_=) or DMs. All day long, I'd be spouting sh*t on things I'd do and did or posting pictures but mostly spouting sh*t on Twitter. And of course, I'd say "Oyasumi" when I wanna go to bed or at least when I'm not sleeping on the keyboard (and have 'A' 'S' 'D' 'F' on my face in the morning). And for as long as it lasted, I got use to this life and it wasn't bad at all. Somehow, since last week, I sort of, got bored(?) no, that's not the word, more like I don't feel like going on Twitter. I don't wanna read stuff on Twitter because they make me go asdf for no reason at all D: and some things reminded me of stuff that shouldn't be happening at all.

Some reasons might be things like "I don't wanna read nonsense" or "stuff on Twitter makes me asdfasdf all the time" but everybody posts nonsense on Twitter and you can't help but be asdfied by it. Maybe I should specifically say stuff like "I don't wanna read nonsense from certain people, or a certain somebody". Then you will come up with stuff like "Just block/mute them" :3 I can't. Because my followers and the people I'm following are important to me. Maybe I'm trying my best to avoid some things. Things I couldn't say because it's too personal :3 Or maybe I'm just avoiding some people. Maybe. I don't know. I don't know why exactly.

Being too focused on it makes me feel like my life only revolves around it. It's as if I have no real life to run and my life runs on the computer. Not to mention I have to look at the computer almost 20hrs a day. like FUCK. Seriously, before there was Twitter (or the thing the call social networks), there's this thing called cellphones. And I was seriously satisfied with just text message alerts. But now, my phone doesn't rang as much and I don't often get text messages because ppl Tweet! D: And I check Twitter every second of the day, well, I used to D: (and I'm not that free... but then?! D: Naze? Naze na no? Naze na no yooooo???) I just can't get away from it! Oh just to add to that, Social Networks kill real friendships.

What makes me feel worse is, I'm pretty busy with work and all and when I come home every night, I see no one at home. Just furnitures. D: And what's the first thing I would do when I reach home? Login to Twitter and type "Tadaima". OTZ.... Yeah. That's when foreveralone.jpg comes in as a 15mb picture. Dinner? How about dinner you ask? Don't you go out with friends, you ask? Well, Dinner is : 1-300-88-6555(Nando's) or 1-300-888-333(Domino's) D: Everyone has their own life to run.

As complicated as it sounds, the easiest way to solve this is to... well, avoid it. To run away from it. To treat it as if it never existed! (OK. this is impossible). Re-evaluate my life. Set my priorities. I'm not 17! I'm 17 + 10!! D: And I have 1 grayhair! I know some ppl are worried about me because I suddenly disappear. I'm sorry guys, and don't worry about me. I'm fine. I just need time out. * hugs *

And to #Uchikazoku, Thank you for worrying about me, as the head of the family (cough) I'm sorry for disappearing without notice. I'll be back soon, I promise.

And to my friends: To those who texted my phone, you guys are the best! I get text message alerts! hahahahahaha!!! To those who constantly MSN-ing, gtalk-ing me to see if I'm ok, you guys are awesome. To those who asked around because they haven't seen me, you guys are great! Thank you.

To those who didn't even realize I've been missing, thanks for making me realize I'm not an important existence in you life. Arigatou, soshite arigatou.

P/s: Being away from Twitter is calming :3

((o(^o^)o)) -----> Ruru On Hyper Mode

Today is the 23rd of March 2011. Another day before my trip back home. I was so excited I couldn't sleep last night. (Another reason would be, I was too exhausted, I even yelled for a foot massage in the middle of the night) LOL! It's been almost three years since the last time I went home (as in my hometown). It's not very far away from where I'm residing, it's only an hour and 40 mins by plane. You must be wondering why haven't I been back for 3 years even though it's THAT near? Well, no need to dwell on the past. I'm finally ready to go home!!! ( que: L'Arc~en~Ciel - Link (KISS MIX) in the background)

I wonder if my housekey still works. LOL! I wonder how my room looks like now! I heard it looked like hell. That's what my mom said, coz she went back a couple of weeks ago. I wonder if my room still smells like lavender in-scent (I doubt it =_=). I wonder if my L'Arc's posters are still alive (maybe they faded already). And my hat collection! Oh wait! My legendary desktop. Wonder if that still works. Ahhh~~ I'm so excited. Most importantly, I wanna reminisce about the old times when I was still living in that house. About my late grandfather. About the things we cousins do when all of us were still talking to each other. LOL. Don't ask. Ok moving on.


Coincidentally, there is an event that will be held this Saturday in accordance to Earth Hour and Dented (my band) are going to perform that night! So tomorrow night (once I reach Kuching International Airport), I am scheduled to be kidnapped by Dented and I will have crash-course "Guitar for Idiots" with Momo since I haven't touched guitar since, er... forever? No I'm kidding. Since years ago. Again, I lied. I just haven't practiced for the performance. OTZ...

When we talk about my hometown, Kuching a.k.a the Nyaaa~ City, it's all about THE FOOD! Well to me it is! ahahah!! * must think of counter strategy for all the food I will consume! * I will update it all in the blog or realtime update on twitpic/twitter :D

For whatever reason it is, I can't wait to go home.

(Though Imma miss a few ppl like everyone in #Uchikazoku, Skype fellows, Yancha sekai de ichiban dai suki na akuma no ero petto Yukikun, Fuku-kaichou Peace, Idol Piro pyon, Kaichou Kururugi, Yamada sensei, Futago-chan, Nyanmaru, Gatekeeper) Le sigh.

Part 1: Life's Theme Songs

If I am to pick theme songs for what's been going on with my life right now, I have a few. LOL. It's like an "OST of Life" or something. Except it varies in every occasion in my daily take in life. AND it changes quarterly every year. Like, it plays in my head everytime something happens or even when nothing happen. (Oh yes, my imagination works itself to the max sometimes) Take JAWS for example. (To those who do not know what 'JAWS' is can jump off the nearest cliff). Everyone knows JAWS theme song, right?

In my case, the theme songs varies depending on my mood.
(Remember, I am from Team Decepticon, not Emoticon) LOL!

Here's a list of my current "Life OST". Hee =D

1) Cool - Gwen Stefani
The only song that could calm me down when I'm back on the fence and thinking all the "What Ifs" and whatnot. This will be in my head prior to the whole brain being occupied by... * cough * next..



2) Skip Turn Step - Wakeshima Kanon
This will play in my head when I'm extremely happy. Usually, when I think of my nieces (Chib and Kosuke) and my nephew (Ryuu-chan). Reason that is, Chib loves this song to the extend of wanting it to be played everytime she's in my car. EVERYTIME. And Kosuke loves it too. So listening to this makes me happy =)



3) Skip Turn Step (Instrumental) - Wakeshima Kanon
Well, this will play when I'm in "Hanyan~" Mode. (p/s: refer Cardcaptor Sakura Anime) And Oh.. I feel like playing the bass and violin part whenever i listen to this. I tried the violin part though. The bass part hmm... it's slow but it sounds awesome! It's the best song to listen to when u feel all "Kira kira" and "fuwa fuwa" inside. And when u feel all daisies and sunshine~ Hanyannnnn~ XD



4) Cassis - the GazettE
This is a sad song but it's a beautiful piece (for a VK band). Last year, this category was filled in by 'Kousai' by Alice Nine. Cassis only plays in my head when I'm terribly down (like.. all the time, what do u mean "ONLY PLAYS IN MY HEAD WHEN. . ." Aki?)



5) 4 in the morning - Gwen Stefani
Well, you know... all the things that happen all night long and make u stay up til 4 in the morning. The good, the bad, the wonderful, the worst, the pretty, the ugly. Mostly, what makes you happy. This song gives me strength to go on and not to call it a quit. It keeps reminding me never to give up and to hold on to it.



6) TIME CAPSULE - Last Alliance
This usually comes when I'm in "I hit rock bottom! But I know I can survive!" =_=
Sorry but no PV or mp3 for this m(_ _)m

7) When Will I See You Again - The Three Degrees
Only happens when I'm in the car; Partially-Hanyan~ XD


Will be continued...

Entropy at work: A good girl

Should post this to some weekly talent competition. LOL! THIS IS RANDOM!! Not related to anyone dead or alive. Thanks For Reading.

A good girl
by erma

A good girl will always smile to the things she adores

A good girl will know when to seek and when to ignore
A good girl will not let go easily
A good girl will pout when she misses that somebody
A good girl will do what it takes to win that someone's heart
A good girl will sulk for the reasons they had to be apart
A good girl will compromise and tolerate
A good girl will always believe in fate
A good girl will cry and then recover
A good girl will know when to say "It's over"
A good girl will nod when there is a good reason behind something
But a good girl is also a mere human being; a fragile little thing
A good girl will know when to quit, although it hurts and there is no cure to it
A good girl will know when to quietly leave, but stands tall to what she believes
Therefore a good girl needs a good man
The one she knows she wants to be with, the one who is able to withstand her, the only one who can

Long overdue...

If this post is edible and has an expiry date, I would have died by now =_= but anyways, here's the news. I've LONG completed my Samurai Deeper Kyo (English Version) manga collection! (Yeay!!! OMEDETOU!!). By the way, I had it in my hand since July. Hahah!! And nope, I haven't read it. It's still in the plastic wrap, fresh from Kinokuniya. I know what happened in the end already so I decided to keep it that way until I start reading the whole series again. ahhahah!!!

Volume 37/38:The final installment of Samurai Deeper Kyo (English version)

I'm not sure if all of you have heard of "Samurai Deeper Kyo" by Akimine Kamijyou. If you have this in mind --> "Oh. That. I watched the anime and it sucks" Well, get out of here! Please don't judge the manga by the anime. You know anime storyline is usually estranged from and not loyal to the manga. Take Fullmetal Alchemist for example. Thank God they did Brotherhood and was loyal to the manga.

Ok back to Samurai Deeper Kyo (SDK).

Image 1: Samurai Deeper Kyo Logo

This was recommended by a used-to-be-good friend of mine somebody I know years ago. Around 8-9 years ago? I too, started off by watching the anime and of course, like everybody else, it was a turn off. What kind of Samurai story has alien-like-monster in it? AND not to mention during Tokugawa era. Ok, fine if you want it that way, but I didn't like it. The story in the anime was WAAYYYYYY different from the original manga. IN the Anime, Kyo was an artificial construct, born of Kyoshiro's attempt to purge violence and cruelty from himself. Which is NOT the real story. Kyo and Kyoshiro are two different individual.

What made me go on with the anime although I said "gosh this is crap" was the character, Sanada Yukimura (真田 幸村) (voiced by "Aniki" Megumi Ogata!!). The excellent and brilliant general, infamous for his military tactics. Of course, he was awesome in the anime, the manga and in real life! lolol!! Yukimara has 10 loyal ninjas that follows him around (imperceptible in the eye of normal human being) lol! They are the Sanada 10 (Sanada Jyuyushi: 真田十勇士)

Image 2: Sanada Yukimura in the anime

So I got attracted to finding out if the manga is the same as the anime. I'm glad I did. The manga IS AWESOME. And I fell in love with most of the characters in SDK, especially the main character Demon Eyes Kyo (Onime no Kyo: 鬼眼の狂).

Image 3: Kyo doing his "Mumyo Jinpu Ryu" in the anime

This. You have to read the manga. I'm not gonna summarize the whole gd thing. This is marketing strategy people! Buy the tankoubon!! All I can say is this manga is awesome. Although it's an old series, I've read it about 12 times because I just love the art, the story line and the ending.

Image 4: Kyo and the gang

Like I said. I read it 12 times. Hope that triggered your curiousity. hahaha!! By the way, Kamijyo-sensei is also the author for Code:Breaker and Shirogane no Karasu. So, Read This People!!

Warning: If you haven't watch the anime or read the manga, PLEASE GET YOURSELF AWAY FROM THE ANIME. And enjoy the manga to the fullest! Thanks! :D

We are The Tweelympians, my friend

The Gods and a Goddess are on Twitter!!

Yeah.. but nope. Not what you're thinking. The era of the Gods and Goddesses was long dead but Homer (nope, not Homer Simpson), author of the epic poems - the Iliad and the Odyssey kept them alive. Me and fellow Tweelympians (Tweeples + Olympians) (laniemon, Yukinao6, kamokun, tangBR) were just bored out of our wits and we thought, "Hey, this is fun" in some unnatural parallel mindlink and started "playing gods" on Twitter! LOL. Just the characters and nope, not really playing GODS. We are mere humans. * shrugs*

Anyway, it all started with me and laniemon; fellow Olympian slash coffee buddy (a friend I met from twitter) bitching about our hahaha "Shachou" and start giving them names; Zeus and Hades. So we usually addressed them as that when we tweet- no, bitch about work lol. Somehow, it got intercepted (intercepted?) and joined by other fellow tweeples and thus, we have a bunch of Olympians now. So we decided to "be" the Greek Gods/Goddess and picked our favourites. So as decided we picked these:

ermakyo : Me as Athena

Image 1: Athena

Yukinao6: Onitan as Hermes

Image 2: Hermes

kamokun: Kamokun as Hephaestus

Image 3: Hephaestus

laniemon: laniemon as Dionysus

Image 4: Dionysus

tangBR: Chii-chan TangBR as Atlas

Image 5: Atlas

Here are the other 2 of the Goddesses that I liked (but didn't picked):

Aphrodite (pronounced as EF-RO-DAI-TEE):

Image 6: Aphrodite

I almost picked Aphrodite. Wait. I did pick Aphrodite and then I changed my mind. I loved Aphrodite, maybe she's next after Athena (or before?) LOL! She's too lovely for my personality. Besides I don't have men groveling at my feet. And Aphrodite is the Goddess of Love, Beauty and Sexuality. (Checked CV: er.... not qualified O_O). And wait Aphrodite married Hephaestus (O_O If u read Homer, Hephaestus was banished from Olympus because he was Ugly. Zeus wanted them to marry each other to avoid war. So, there's no such thing as "opposite attracts" then?) And why I didn't pick Aphrodite? She is gorgeous (me=not), has many lovers (impossible for me too) and consort to Hephaestus, Ares, Poseidon, Hermes, Dionysus, Adonis, and Anchises. See, that's 3 out of the 4 from my fellow Olympians up there =_=

Persephone (pronounced as PER-SAY-FUR-NEE):

Image 7: Persephone

Also, I almost picked Persephone.. again. I have history with Persephone and ... "the late Hades" (the better off dead ex-boyfriend). Persephone is the Queen of the Underworld and wife of Hades. The story of Persephone is terribly sad especially when she was abducted to the underworld. I think she live the most normal life among other Goddesses in Olympus.Oh and referring to the Olympian telling, the gods Hermes, Ares, Apollo, and Hephaestus, had all wooed Persephone; but Demeter (her mom) rejected all their gifts and hid her daughter away from the company of the Olympian deities. Wahahahah!!! Anyway, she was an innocent goddess who picks flowers and stuff until she was abducted by Hades. Zeus did try to ask Hades to return his daughter but the rules of Fates (=_=) say that those who consumed anything from the underworld was bound to live there for eternity. There u go. The epic tale is too long. Anyone interested better go read yourself. But, the story of Persephone is my favourite, next to The Odyssey. =)

So why did I pick Athena then?

Because Athena is the goddess of war, civilization, wisdom, strength, strategy, crafts, justice and skill in Greek mythology!!!!!! Muwahahahahah!!!! She is smart. That's why i picked her. She is heroic! She's a warrior! In the simplest text, AWESOME. Enough said. =)


I don't know about the other guys but my reason for picking Athena is just that. She is awesome. And I want to be awesome. No, I AM AWESOME. LOL! * gets bricked *

Maybe next time I will talk about The Odyssey. Story of Odysseus and his handsome son, Telemachus.

Sources:
Athena: (Source: http://inertiak.deviantart.com/art/Athena-85360364?q=boost%3Apopular+athena&qo=7)
Hermes: (Source: http://walterka.deviantart.com/art/Hermes-the-god-of-slyness-123473731)
Hephaestus: (Source: http://www.gaiaonline.com/forum/barton-town/greek-mythology-rp-re-accepting-don-t-mind-everyone-join/t.44340433/)
Dionysus: (Source: http://www.freewebs.com/rockaway/peopleofthewest.htm)
Atlas: (Source: http://curtydc.deviantart.com/art/Atlas-167076542?q=boost%3Apopular+Atlas+god&qo=23)
Aphrodite: (Source: http://myambeon.deviantart.com/art/Aphrodite-177607689?q=boost%3Apopular+aphrodite&qo=10)
Persephone: (Source: http://blackeri.deviantart.com/art/Persephone-36462190?q=boost%3Apopular+persephone&qo=12)

Universal Children's Day: Stop Child Abuse!

Today (20th November) is Universal Children's Day. I was invited by Ili Billie to support the event which was held at 1Utama this morning. I should have brought my nieces and nephew. The event was all about creating awareness of child abuse and for all means, to support against child abuse and many other things related to children. I came a little late but I managed to join the Flash Mob game which was totally awesome. Didn't bring my blanket (and no, no kid with me) so I shared blanket with a random person and she was nice enough to offer me her blanket (and we became friends =) hehehe). While we were having our own "sleep over" in front of Mac City, suddenly somebody came and tickled me while I was under the blanket. I burst into tears and I laughed so hard. When I peeked, it was Datin Marina Mahathir. Hahaha! Omg.. * embarrassed * She must have thought I was a kid =_= Oh! And I was mistaken for a 16 year old TWICE. Anyway, I didn't manage to take a lot of photos because my phone died on me T___T.

Exhibit 1: If you need help, call 15999

Exhibit 2: Kodomo ga aishiteiru

Exhibit 3: Show support against child abuse

Exhibit 4: The crowd before the Flash Mob game

For more info check out: UNICEF Malaysia and show your support.

Love your children. Stop child abuse. Remember, we were once kids.



x-posted to : Theater of Randomness: Unraveling tangled yarns

Fidelity

The 4 days away from the world was a total failure. =_= My part that is, but it seems like the world has no problem turning its back on me. * shrugs * So I consider myself on an "Under Construction" situation. I'm still seeking the right answer to all the questions that are in my head right now. Some I do know the answers, but I'm a weak little bastard (ain't never calling myself a bitch and I'm not a bastard so that doesn't count either) who is always in denial (see, not calling myself a bitch and stating 'bastard' makes the fact of being in denial clearer) O_O

So my mind has been in a mess lately. Ever since I'm sorta 'involving' myself with the thing called 'feelings' * barf * which I NEVER had. I repeat that;"NEVER". Well, if that is what they call 'feelings' well so be it. Come on, everyone knows Aki IS Stoic. I live accordingly to the thing called logic. And that's a fact. So I found out that I kinda... er ... am sorta (ok, I'm also thinking of how to actually 'express' or 'explain' this) got 'attached'(?) with some sort of a 'fiber-optic involvement'(?) no. Involvement is not the word. (still in denial eh?) Ok so I like somebody. There! I said it (with a strike-through). LIKE here refers to the type that makes u go gaga over everything. LOL!!!

I'm not sure if this thing is allowed. I'm not if I'm allowed to 'feel'. I mean. God gives us options. It really depends on us human. If i take it as positive as possible, will this be the right thing to do? Should I continue with having the thing they call 'feelings' which is currently intangible due to the fact that it's not physically possible and clearly not in front of my eyes? And the fact that I'm not sure what the other party is thinking because well, some people can change like the weather. Will I be able to live like this, when I keep hurting myself everyday and the fact that I actually am too close to this person would probably make this person feels like I'm invading their life? What am I to do then when I already know that somehow, this could be impossible?

I never liked anyone fully. I always do it halfheartedly because my 'logic' says "Hurt than be hurt". It seems like now, I'm having the reverse effect of my own logic. And fuck, it hurts like hell. I'm definitely contemplating this. I've been thinking about it. I either should stop the whole stabbing-the-heart-parade. OR. I could wait. If I wait, how much time can I give myself? Please God. I need an answer. T____T Well, truth be told. HE already did show me signs. I just need to be patient, that's all.

Things people take to the furthest extend

I remember way back before we have all these social networking sites and Internet was not as amusing as now, the only way people bitch about others was to gossip privately among a group. Hahahaha! If they have guts, they would write them a letter (very high school-like * rolled eyes *) and bitch about them in there. And if they have bigger guts, they would definitely face them on and well.. catfight!

Since there are things like mySpace, Friendster and Facebook, we can see that many fights/quarrels/lawsuits break just because one can't stand the other just by reading status posted on each other's wall. A friend began to call it FaceBITCH instead, because that's where people bitch about each other PUBLICLY most of the time nowadays. So many virtual crimes happened from these social networking sites. People may intentionally or unintentionally posted things that could offend others in so many ways. Of course, nobody's pointing fingers at anyone, but since these social networking sites aren't controllable and the Internet are uncontrollable and humans are well.. never will be controllable, what can be done?

If you read the newspaper daily, you would at least come to at least one news about fraudulent especially the ones from the Internet. One which involve social networking site are mostly about Women and Men who seek for attention to fulfill desire (whatever desire it is, I'm not gonna go further explaining these stupid things). There was this one case I read (on the newspaper, of course) about this one lady who offer sex service for beasts men who are interested or more like desperate. (According to the report on the newspaper) On her profile, she posted sexy alluring photos of her i mean of "her" to attract customers. From the newspaper, a cover-baik-punya-pervert dude said, he was trying to trap the girl by asking her to meet him for service. He even bargain with her about the price and then banked-in some cash to her account. He then went to the place they were supposed to meet but she didn't show up. (Seriously, who would fall for that kind of trick? Maybe the cover-baik-punya-pervert dude who was trying to trap her was too ugly). Anyway, turned out that the "babe" that offered the service was well.. a big size attention seeker who really has nothing to do except trick perverted guys who also has nothing to do because both have nothing to do except abuse the good use of Internet. Why would anyone, do such a thing? For money? For attention? And then? Is it satisfying? Is it good to trick perverts, I mean people? We were given all these facilities not to do stupid things (yeah.. I like to use the word stupid because I'm trying not to swear too much) like these morons? Have your parents not teach you about manners?

That's one case. There are plenty more out there which are outrageously, beyond what you call, normal thinking. Another one which also caught my attention (because some people are born with their brain on their xxx) are the ones where two people met online, online dating, met each other (or not) and then the guy/girl has huge corporation and then he/she went traveling, then was mugged, then asked for money because he/she need to see clients and pay whatever shit. And because of foolishness love, they would do anything where they would bank in the large amount of money into the "significant other"'s account and then in the end, they never hear from them again. (OK. that was long) Again, what's wrong with these people? I mean, not everyone's like me. Ignorant, stoic, indifferent. Right. Let's not start. But still, how can so many, seriously THAT MANY women especially, get fooled by people you don't see physically? First of all, how can you be in a relationship with people you can't physically see, touch? * shook head *

Speaking of the things that can offend people intentionally/ unintentionally. Lately, they have been soooo many cases where people love to write offensive things on their profile. Things that emit racism for example. People would say this race is better than this. Or stuff like that. But think about it, when you say it like that, does that make YOU a better person? Why can't people see each other as human? We are mere creation of God. Why can't people stop labeling people?

There are just some random thoughts I have for today. =_=" But I'm just too sleepy to continue and I wanna watch my Anime. XD
Besides, I don't really like to talk shit about other people. I'm just making a general opinion.
Until then.

Entropy At Work: Why Do I Read Manga?

I've reached the quarter century mark in my life but I'm still a kid at heart ( I still haven't grown my 4 wisdom teeth okay). I love watching Anime, collecting gunpla, collecting Anime DVDs, buying and reading Japanese magazine of which only related to Anime stuff [for now] (which 3/4 of the time needs my full attention on drooling over 2D characters with rare poses and another 91/4 to translate what was written in it) and above all would be buying and reading Manga. Sometimes I wonder why do I love reading Manga so much? I love reading books but Manga has extremely drool-able and nose bleed-able bishounen characters visual aids.

Here are some (what I thought) good reasons:

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Really.. I just can't give any REASON why I love reading Manga. Do I have to have a reason for it? If you love something, just go and grab it!

P/S: This post is rather stupid. But Who Cares?! :D

I'll recommend some good Manga in the next post.

Translation:
bishounen - extremely beautiful (yes i mean beautiful) young men
manga-ka - artistes that draw manga