Misadventure...

Okay. I'm currently sitting in a cafe, far far away from my house (okay, not really) but what matters is how i got here and what actually happened. It started with me, being unhappy at work because I wasn't rewarded for my effort last year.Of course, it isn't fair! You dont have to guess how I feel right now. So I got sick suddenly and I had problwm breathing. I went back early. Taking my heart with me. i wasnt happy. I decided to leave work, and took the bus home.I took the one I never hitched before. And... i got lost. =_=

Life-update: The business that kills...

It's been a month since I last posted anything on Kyou no ato ni kyou nashi. Not to mention, other blogs which I was supposed to maintain. (Pfft.... so much for responsibilities). I'm not gonna go on "I've been soooooooooo busy lately that I forgot to feed my cat" thingy again, but seriously. My life has gone berserk.

It seems like I'm stuck in this pentagon (no.. hexagon? octagon?) called life where everyone else is facing it flawlessly (or not) but I know I'm not. I'm not sure if it's too late to say this, but even so, every now and then I'm stuck at the corner and I can't seem to find my way out. (Thus, the pentagon)

I've been busy doing all sorts of things (which also includes "orchestrating the rebellion") but with no avail. I mean I've been trying for the past 6 months (hahahah!! i think i did... maybe in 6 mnths I only tried twice or trice)

This one's gonna be a short one coz I'm also busy catching up with my anime. hahahaha!!

Just another update before I go, I'm currently training for KL Marathon 2010. Wahahaha!! I'm serious. Don't laugh.

The Hero

Though it's a bit too late to say this, Happy Merdeka to all Malaysians. I had a wonderful weekend during the short break and I was at home hanging out with my family. On Saturday, I was out with Haha-ue and we were supposed to shop for Raya, but it seemed like I was more fond on buying books and non-raya related stuff. Anyhow, as we were talking in the car about Independence day and such, Haha-ue came across the story where Chichi-ue cheated death. I never thought about Chichi-ue being some sort of a hero to me. I honestly think that Chichi-ue was just someone who could sit at home and watch TV all day long and it kind of pissed me off all the time. I never want to think about him ever being one of the many soldiers that protected his nation. I never did. Even though he used to tell me stories about those times when he was in the army, I couldn't care less. Until I heard about this.

So it goes something like this,

It was years back, probably in 82 where I wasn't born yet. Chichi-ue was posted in Sibu and Haha-ue was in Kuching. Sibu, that time was the hotspot for comunists. Haha-ue said, everyday when the heli arrived, there would be dead bodies. Or at least one. And that time, she kept on asking where Chichi-ue was, but they keep on telling her that he was at base. It lasted for weeks, until Chichi-ue returned. Haha-ue still didn't know that Chichi-ue was actually in the battle until his batman (some sort of a butler, this person shines shoes, irons clothes, do all trivial things for Chichi-ue) told Haha-ue that one of Chichi-ue's comrade died in his arm. Chichi-ue was supposed to be leading the platoon and was supposed to be up front but one of his men told him to switch places with him and let him be in front. A few steps after, the man was shot and he died in Chichi-ue's arm. I only thought these kind of things only happen in movies, but when I asked Chichi-ue, he said that it is something that he could never forget. I asked him, what was the man's last word. Chichi-ue said, "Please take care of my family". I was totally stricken by this. I wanted to cry. Because this man had to die to protect his superior, his comrades, his country.

And then it occured to me, Chichi-ue was there too. All the time before I was born in this world and after I was born. He was one of the many many soldiers who protected this country. He was there and was faced with death all the time. Nobody knows when the bullets will come at you. Nobody knows when the person you walk with will get shot. Nobody knows who will die next or when they will die. Nobody knows. Chichi-ue is a brave and strong man. Of course he is, if he's not around, who's gonna drive the baka hebi and the boge saru away from the house? Who's gonna carry the heavy groceries from the car? I realized now that I never have thought about it in this perspective and I've always seen Chichi-ue as someone who does nothing. I know. Boku wa warui ko da ne. Chichi-ue wa tsuyoi hito, yasashii hito da. Boku no Chichi-ue wa kono kuni no eiyuu da. Boku no hon mono no eiyuu da. Kansha suru yo.