.... and do you know who is the last one standing?

Well, well. If it isn't the hot topic of the week. I'm not going to mention what it is because i'm too tired to spell each and every one out for you people again and again. If anyone is curious, please read the newspaper or watch the current news on your local network (yes, that's our local network, here in this distorted country).

Due to the unavoidable case (because some people are just too bored and it's like if they don't mess up the whole country their life will not be complete and they won't be able to die in peace ) , here is what i've got to say.

1) I'm not going to be on anyone's side. Everyone and everything (which includes all living creature that share and breathe the same air) has their own opinion on everything. Therefore, because I'm not one of those people who think they are smarter than everyone in this planet * points finger at someone's back *, I'm just gonna say it as simple as possible. All the sawagi are useless. Seriously, did it make anything better? Self-satisfaction, yes. But not for everyone's sake, moron.

2) It's just sad to see how some circle can actually act like barbarians. And, their brain lags among all the thins in their body system. Act before think? This doesn't work in the 21st century people.

3) While we suffer from heartache and hatred and pain and everything that doesn't spell good, all of us (regardless from what religion or race) were actually dancing right in the palm of you know who.

I BET THE DEVIL IS HAVING A BLAST AND LAUGHING HIS ASS OFF RIGHT THIS MOMENT. BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT HE ALWAYS WANTED ALL ETERNITY. THE FALLEN OF MANKIND. AND WE?

Human's heart is just an empty shell. We are the ones who filled it with evil.

When Grandma was here....

Grandma was here the last whole week. I was totally psyched about it and I totally had the best time ever. Not to mention, Yuuki-kun was sleeping over and we had the greatest time over the weekend.

When Grams was here,

• My bed was never in the 'state of war'. It's always in the right angle. She can never let the comforter unfolded and the gazillion pillows all over the place. Not to mention, the many many DVDs and manga on the bed were gone. (luckily I found where she stashed it)
• My manga and anime DVDs were nowhere to be found.
• I don't get to watch Animax. She would conquer the couch and would force me to sit and accompany her to watch Robert Rainford do the grill. It was seriously fun.
• I forgot about the plans to watch Avatar and Shelock Holmes. So until now, I haven't had the time to go.
• She always want me to be on the dining table during dinner and not let me ate in front of the TV. BUT... when P. Ramlee was on, she herself was there. That's pretty funny. O_O
• I ate a lot. Because I was happy.
• We had "Durian Party" on New Year. And yes, I was the one who suffered the most from the smell.
• We made dinner rolls and bread together. The funny part was, when she couldn't make a circle and instead made a rectangular-shaped dinner roll!!! Both of us failed. Mom chased us out of the kitchen. But the bread turned out really good despite the many 'faces'.
• We had Western food almost everynight! (Darn AFC!)
• She watched P. Ramlee movies almost everynight. She forced me and Yuuki-kun to watch with her. But we ran to my room and did a long session of L'Arc~en~Ciel's karaoke.
• I tried my best to spend every minute with her because I love Grams... :)))

Tomorrow night, Grams flying back to Kuching and I'm missing her already. =(

Year End: Update on the Kakkois :D

I have a new eye-candy!!! Andddd he is Saotome Alto of Macross Frontier. OH MY GOD!
I know I'm very very very very late to realize this... but at least I do now..... My year-end quote is.... "I WANT ALTO ON MY WALL!!!".

Yes.. I missed buying the calender for 2o10 and it is now out-of-stock. And somehow... they don't reproduce Calendars.... O_O... pelik rite?

Anyway,
update on eyecandies/mansluts for Year 2009.

1) Saotome Alto (of course...)



2) Date Masamune.... (sorry Masamune-sama!)



3) Onime-no-Kyo


4) Sebastian Michaelis


5) Kuchiki Byakuya (O_O??? Why??? Because he looks cool in the Zanpakutou fillers)




I can go on forever... but i better stop now.

Anyhow... to everyone, A very Happy New Year. May 2010 be a great year for all of us!!!


Happy New Year 2010!

My reaction?

UPDATE: Life at the end of the Year 2009

1) It's been crazy lately. With my ever-changing moods and the indecisive heart and mind. And the ever-changing thoughts and ideas. And the work. And the relationships, friendships. (skinship?? hahah. i just wanted to type that.) I've been an ass to myself and to everything and everyone. But I never put any subjects of why things have been that way out of sight. And anyone who knows me well know that I'm the one who remembers shitty things that have been done to me and shitty things that I do or did to ppl.

2) Work. Oh Work is just Work. It's never changing. Work can never be less. Work is always and will always be work.

3) Lately, I have been spending a lot of time with myself. I miss that. I always try to find time to pamper myself n I really needed that. Especially when people I am (was) close with are (were) not around me (anymore).

4) I'm not very responsive to anything now. My "No-Feeling-Disease" has been worst. Even towards my boy-friend. (ok. there is a meaning to why there is a "-" there)

5) The fact that I planned on going back to Kuching has been changed to a hateful desire. Hahahah!!!

6) My Samurai Deeper Kyo's collection is almost complete. Another 2 more volumes (or another tankoubon) . But we (the SDK manga collectors of English Version) are disappointed with the missing covers for Volume 36. (T_______T)

7) Don't worry, when I can find time to write about 2009 review, I will write. For now I'm too busy with so many things. I remembered someone asked me "What are you so busy with??" Well, unlike you who has sooooo much free time, I'm different. I'm putting a fullstop to that so that another big stupid argument will not happen.

8) This year, I was given a few year planner for free. I mean. Last year I had to buy them. O_O

9) Grandma is here. Again. :D

10) I'm doing something to my hair again before the new year. Why? Because I am bored with it.

Responsibility and Realization

I found something interesting in my "Journal Collection". One of them is titled as Responsibility and I didn't even post it to my blog. (I think I did not). Anyhow, This is something to ponder.

"Would it be so wrong to admit that I am swimming in the sea filled with wonderful feelings, colourful emotions, the sea that promises no heartache, and even if I drowned in it, I will never regret ever living in it? I have never felt that way before. I am not sure whether this statement is correct but from my point of view, there is no such thing as a wonderful life. Even if there is, at some point everyone will at least face the steel bar, or the great wall of life and to get through it will require a great sacrifice. Right now, I am wandering about, not knowing where to go, still not satisfy with life and currently bound to admit to reality. Sitting here having a cup of hot coffee after a long shower, reminiscing. Sometimes I thought living this life could be as simple as reading a book (which reminds me that I need to go to Book Castle to get some paperback). Obviously, that thought is so wrong, but unfortunately, nobody tells us that as we walk this road, we crumble, we fall, we cry and we have to get up by ourselves. And nobody is there to help us.

Let’s talk about responsibilities. What is my responsibility as a human being? (aside from the responsibilities that I have towards God). Which reminds me of what my kawaii little foster brother, Addin had said to a man he saw loitering about after he did his Friday prayer.

Addin: Are you a Muslim?
The man: Yes.
Addin: What is your God’s name?
The man: Allah.
Addin: Isn’t it your responsibility to go for Friday prayer? Why didn’t you?
The man: (speechless)

(Note: Addin is only 7 years old and yes, he talks like an adult. Sometimes he does piss me off with his stories of ancient Romans and the ancestors including World War and Napoleon Bonaparte)
I would seriously kill myself after hearing that from a 7 years old kid (or on the other hand I would kill the kid instead for reminding what an ass I am). His dad (Addin’s dad that is) was speechless too and had to apologize to the man. Hahaha.. I thought that was a funny story after hearing it. But then again, it really hit me. And it made me realize that life is too short to be so careless and irresponsible. But it is still funny though, don’t you think… (really laughing my head off right now).

Actually, I miss my life as an undergraduate student. I want to go back. I realized that is the time I can really ‘lepak’, watch anime, download movies, sleep and the only responsibility I have is towards myself. Now that I’m done with school (gosh… this really reminds me that I’m OLD), I can’t have as much fun as I had in university. There are always rules to break and being carefree in university is the best feeling I have ever had (Warning: Do not be carefree while you’re schooling. It will only get you in trouble. Dame yo. Zettai Dame!).

I have another 7 years before I’m 30 (am I thinking too far?) and I possess and unusual fear of growing up and settling down (and of course I’m running away from this fucked up responsibilities that I happened to be involved with undesirably). Doesn’t it sound sick to know that others' mistake is your responsibilities? I’m not ready to have big responsibilities and it’s not what I want after having a long undesirable life (23 years is considered as long, you know)."

Okay... I just realized that was written over 3 years ago... LOL!!! But whatever...

A little something for the heart...

I have this routine of going out every morning on weekends to Starbucks to have breakfast just to feed my eyes with cute baristas get my ass out of the house. (And please... the first reason is totally valid). Starbucks used to have super hot and cute baristas. Cute baristas is the main attraction of Starbucks. LoL. Okay. I'm kidding about that. Starbucks have a range of coffees and teas which are superbly delicious. Not forgetting the juices and the snacks. OMFG. Now I know why I love going here.

Putting that aside, last Friday we had a blast at Eja's Hen Night Party. It was supposed to be a night in (and out) with a few girls but it turned out to be the original four. Nevertheless, it was a wonderful night. We had Domino's and chickens and deserts and Bruno. Owh.. Bruno. I can't really comment on that. One of us suggested that it was the closest to Male Stripper we can get. LOL. Yeah... It was. But after the show, we were desperately looking for another movie to neutralize our mind.

I haven't had a good time since Bon Odori 2009. Well, I guess you can say it depends on who you hang out with. And if those bunch are the ones who really understands you, then spending time with them will be the best.

I still owe myself a cake for my birthday. LOL.

And in November, I plan to visit someone (who is currently holding the 'taisetsu na hito' place in me). Yeah yeah. A couple of 'taisetsu na hito' has gone missing. The fact that these people think that I can't understand them well is well... so true. Because I don't. And I don't care anymore.
I want to be random again. Since I got the news that I'm terribly sick, I think I should not think about being sick or the fact that I'm sick. LOL. It will only hold me back from doing all the good2 things I can do in life. So, since the doctor said that I should be well soon. I should be all genki and be happy. Rite?


Enjoy life to the fullest!

Arigatou

This week's been great for me. I haven't been updating this blog since... forever... Hahaha... Anyways, I'd like to take this opportunity to thank all my beloved for the birthday wishes, presents, treats. I seriously had a blast (and blessed) with all of you! I've been really busy with work and all to the extend that I don't even have time to check my facebook. O_O

Anyhow, this is just a short entry. I'm too lazy to write anything now. hehehe...