Banjiya Blues FTW.

I've been listening to Banjiya Blues after the u-know-what. So I've picked up the lyrics and translation. Here goes:

Sesuji no bashi ikiteiuku
Kuchi de iu no wa kantan, daga genjitsu wa kibishii.
Iki gatte senobishi te mo
Sekai wa sore wo tataki no mesu
PRide furikazashi hoeta tokode
Omae nanka daremo mitenai
Kyuukutsu na kono sekai
omae wa tamashii wo utta
Hizamazuki tanoshikumonai no ni emi wo ukabete
Omae wa sono tabi ni nanika wo korosu
suri hette kizusuite
sore demo omae wa ikiteiku sa
Gin iro no sekai minamotte
Gin iro no tamashii mune ni himete
Gin iro no kami nabikasete
Gin iro no tamashii kokoro ni himete

I grow a backbone and start to live
It's easy to just talk but in truth reality is rough
Even if i feel tough and grow taller, the world is really dusting me aside
I urfurl my pride and start yelling out
It seems like u dont see anyone
the world is rigid, so u sold ur soul

u kneel and smile even though u are not happy
in the meantime , something dies
fading away and getting hurt
even so u continue to live

watching over this silver coloured world
hiding this silver colored soul inside
Flutteting silver coloured hair
hiding this silver coloured soul in your heart

This is not the time to listen to Banjiya Blues, Kono Yaro!

Okay, for you ppl who knows what I'm going through today might be saying "Oi, sempat gik nya ber-blog ritok". Yeah.. I know, stress. Stress. Very stress. I mean, I don't see why. But I might be putting too much hope to this or maybe because it's been a long time since I last faced this, but whatever it might be, I will be facing it in about 4 hours time. (Sweaty palms....)

Again, I've been stopping myself from listening to Banjiya Blues today. (Bad omen!) Yeah. I'm a freak. Shoot me. I'm rambling now... I hope I won't ramble later. I hope to rumble though. Hahaha!! I must nail this. Whatever the outcome is, I should just be neutral about it. Or I'll be depressed for the rest of my life. (And I should go watch some soap later...)

Update: Countdown :D

Well, I owe this to Take-kun. He's been asking about my current eyecandies/mansluts countdown. Hahaha.. It is disturbing when your only therapy failed you. LOL. (They are my sleeping remedy).
So here goes. Countdown!

10) Hei ( :D He should be in this list... )
9) Lelouch Lamperouge (OMG... I'm not a 'P'. I just love his character!)
8) Saotome Alto (OMG! Please... I need to watch the movie A.S.A.P)
7) Chiaki Shinichi (O_o....... Please. watch Finale)
6) Heiwajima Shizuo (He's just... too cool. Seriously. I love him)
5) Hijikata Toushiro~ (Oh goshh!! Don't ask me.. I don't have any good reason for this)
4) Onime no Kyo (Everytime I listen to the Drama CD, I will flail like a retard. lol)
3) Sebastian Michaelis! Yeay! (You're always at heart and will always be my #1 Manslut)
2) Date Masamune! Yeay! (You didn't move darling :D )
1) Sakata Gintoki! Yeay! (I'm so glad Gintama will continue! I cried when they say 201 is the last eps)

The Ultimate Number 1, Number 1... will always and forever be Rufus Shinra <3

Getting into the Blues....

Oh No. (Oh yes!) I'm seriously into the "Seishun Banzai" mode. Been listening to Banjiya Blues (Gintama OST) the whole week. It's like a driver to depression and then to more hopeful future. I have to get out of here as soon as possible. I don't think I can take another second in this position. Unfortunately, something is very very wrong with me. I can't make a move. Rather, the 'move' is very very slow. Everytime I think about returning to the current position, I will feel like crying a river, no... a sea.

I don't know how it all begun but I know I hate to be here. Maybe when I heard those words from ano kuso yaro, maybe then the trigger was pulled. I know I've been clinging on the rope for so long but I can never decide whether I should let go or still hold on to it despite the pain. I know. I'm pretty pathetic. I don't need a reminder. Sometimes I think of why I'm still here. Eventhough I told myself to only give it another year. This time, I'm pretty sure I cannot take it anymore. My soul is definitely crumbling.

Silver Ball... I mean.... Soul.

It's very rare for me to fall in love with an idiot. (Please narrow down the subject to a 2D character, thank you). Seriously, I've never (so far) liked any character that has no common sense, that picks nose whenever and wherever he can and thinks of his d*ck all the time. Yes. I love Sakata Gintoki. He makes me laugh better than human (oh no! I did not just say that!). I know those who are reading this now wonder who Gin-chan is and why oh why did I really like this baka. Well, ladies and gentlemen, sit back while I introduce you to my current addiction, Gintama!

Image: Gintama

Gintama (Gin Tama - Silver Soul) is a manga by Hideaki Sorachi and is currently still ongoing on Weekly Shonen Jump. Basically, it's about Edo which is invaded by aliens called Amanto and apparently these aliens overpowered the government, banned Samurais from carrying katanas and took over everything. However, the story focused on Gin-chan who runs the Yorozuya (odd-job Gin-chan! famous for his tennen-paama (natural permed hair)) together with his two comrades Shinpachi and an alien girl, Kagura. They would do any type of job for any amount of money.

Other characters include the Shinsengumi, lead by Kondou Isao who is also a baka and stalker that's crazy-in-love with Shinpachi's sister, Otae-san; Vice-Captain - Hijikata Toushirou a mayo-addict; 1st Division Captain: Okita Sougo - a natural DoS; the Spy - Yamazaki - who is a walking parody of Prince of Tennis, only that he loves badminton. And many2 others. These Shinsengumi are always seen chasing the infamous terrorist, the leader of the Joui, Katsura Kotaro. He was Gintoki ex-comrade during the Amanto's invasion and is always seen with his pet Elizabeth.

There are too much to tell about Gintama, you have to watch it for yourself. All I can say is, Gintama always makes my day. Whenever I feel like shit, whenever I'm happy, anytime, I would definitely do a re-run on Gintama.

P/s: I'm ALWAYS too lazy to explain about good things. So please. Just watch! Gintama is currently on Episode 195. Take your time to watch it. Trust me. It's Worth It!

Note: Image from Anime News Network

When Tigers ROAR!

Yeay! It's not new year until it's Chinese New Year!! This is my first post for the year 2010.
EDIT: okay.. so it's not the first post. I lied.
I realized that it had to wait THAT long. You know, one and a half months. What's that all about? I've been busy(-ing) myself with orchestrating a rebellion. But I was defeated by viral fever for a week so the rebellion had to wait. I'm pumped up this week so hopefully something WILL happen. (Praying hard). In the mean time, I'll update what's been happening for the past 1 1/2 months I was gone (away from the blog). And... not that there's anything much going on.

January, Dad's been forcing me into an army-camp-like training. It started when he dragged me out of bed because I think he realized that I'm turning into and 80 year old bottle of elixir. (Why elixir? Don't ask. I can't think of anything else that sounds 'old' and.... well... elixir isn't really a good example of 'rotten') The best thing about this training is that, my theory on "I can't run because I have asthma and my knees are suffering from something-I-don't-know-what-you-call-it" turned out to be FALSE! The real reason why I can't run is simply because I. AM. LAZY!

You know the saying, "You can do it, if you want to do it" ? Well, this really applies here. LOL.

During the army-camp-like training, I've only been living on yogurt and yogurt drinks. WHY you asked? Well, nothing in particular. (Not that I am PARTICULARLY afraid of food.. or anything like that). I mean, I think it's good to maintain a good diet while I'm actually having this training you know, not that I'm on a diet or anything like that. ( clears throat )

I guess that's pretty much it. The summary of 1 1/2 months. I can't seem to get myself to be like the usual. My body is still suffering from the aftermath of the viral fever and I'm currently fighting - hives. It's very rare to happen. Once it's there you'll feel like shedding a new skin. Night time would be the worst time especially the combination of being sleepy or/and itchy. Be happy if you're married or staying with a man. At least someones is there to help keep your mind away from the itchiness in many, many ways. Hahahah!!!!

Okay.. forget about it. The next post will be about something more entertaining!

Gong Xi Fa Chai 2010!! RAWRRRRRR!!!

My heart is at my feet and I'm stepping on it

* typing ridiculous things because can't think straight *

I'm currently in a blank mode for I just did another unexpected and heartless thing but I guess on my side, I'm just doing myself a very, very, very big favour. I have to stop dreaming of wanting happiness the wrong way like doing things that don't give me any satisfaction. I'm just torturing my soul.

Believing is one thing. I honestly do give so much hope and faith to it, but things like this doesn't work one way. When I first decided on it, I knew it's too much to expect and I knew so well this is all bullshit.

I'm just way too complicated.

For that, I bid you farewell. This might really be the last time.