Bon Jovi - Thank You For Loving Me

Good Morning World! It's 7:38am and I have to admit, it's too early to wake up because it's a Sunday! It's a beautiful Sunday!!!! Anyway, I just got back from Ipoh, a random adventure I must say. LastFriday at 4pm I suddenly felt like buying a one way ticket to Ipoh because I missed that certain someone really bad. (Of course he wasn't amused with the whole thing after being trolled. LOL. Sorry dear) I stayed at Mama's (PsychoKuukie) place on Saturday morning (yes, morning), hung out with her for a while and then killed time at Jusco Kinta City, playing Wordsearch at Coffee Bean while waiting for that certain someone to finish work =)

I've never done this kind of things before. LOL. I'm a poor unromantic and hahaha, after yesterday, I promise I will not do this kind of things anymore without telling him. (I don't wanna come between a man and his plans =_=) Ah well, what's done is done.

Btw, hahahaha I actually wanna post this song for that special someone. (And for everyone else, enjoy this song because Bon Jovi is damn hot awesome. XD

You've never heard of Green Day (LOL. Good Riddance is a song)

THIS POST IS LONG OVERDUE =_=

It kinda surprised me that some people think of themselves as God. Okay maybe the way I put it sounds wrong. Put it this way. It kinda surprised me that some people just can't forgive. Some people think the world revolves around them not the other way around. Some people can hate others like it's their job. Some people are so sexist that they didn't even realize they are born from a mother, which is a woman. Some people are... ( creatures unclassified).

This is not a rage post, it should be categorized under "Realization and Respect".

Lately, I've been busy living the best out of life and yes, I have found my source of happiness (omedetou soshite, omedetou to me). And God knows what I have to go through to achieve this. In the process, I've been heartbroken, crushed, re-lived, crushed again for many, many times and yet, it's the same person that I almost gave up upon that made me happy til today (thank you dear =)). Somehow, as we gain, we lost. I lost a friend along the way (well, if you put it in a way that won't sound mean, this person was a friend, at least, I thought he was).

I've always thought a person who talks shit about others by not confronting them are fuckers and has no balls (if he is a male, and not a she-male, that is). I also hate people who talk shit about other people in their blog and tell "unfortunate" tales about themselves by vomiting vulgar words and playing "victims" in the eyes of people who don't know them. But most of all, I hate people who are cowards and can only yap in the back but turn into dried plums when confronted. No. More like, running with their tail between their legs.

So this one person (non existence?) talked about "that certain someone" in his blog twice. TWICE. yeah, talk about being clingy and all (told u he still sayang you, dear. LOL. J/K) Was he that upset about "that certain someone"? if he is, then why not tell him in his face?! Coz blogging about it doesnt help, really. Talking shit about others behind their back only happens in high school, between 14 years old GIRLS. Also, if you don't like/ don't favour "that certain someone", you don't go deleting others that are associated with them, if you think the others are your friends. Wait, you don't have friends do you? Because you hate humans? Oh, and you also hate FEMALES because we're from VENUS, right, we're aliens. How can I forget that fact! D:

So this Non-Existence, thought of me as a friend, but not anymore. Because I'm in a relationship with "that certain someone" and he said, I showed him the side of me that he doesn't know. hahahahahaah!!!! Which side of me DO YOU KNOW? Did you even know me at all? This is so funny really, it all started that particular day. If I remember what happened that day....

1) Non-Existence called me the night before "that certain someone" asked me out and asked me why I agree to meeting with "that certain someone" when i hate "that certain someone" so much. Here's news for you Non-Existence, I FORGIVE PEOPLE ALTHOUGH THEY DID SHIT TO ME BECAUSE I'M NOT GOD AND I'M A MERE HUMAN BEING. I can't judge people and decide they are scums like you did.

2) I showed up at a certain cafe with "that certain someone" and didn't know Non-Existence was there. And according to some ppl who were there, he KNEW "that certain someone" was coming so he waited. Question: If you HATE "that certain someone", then why did you wait for his arrival? Because you loved him so much that you wanna create a shoujo manga scene and make me look like I'm the bitch who stole your boyfriend? Because u wanna play victim? Because U wanna be Ts-Tsu-Tsundere?! YOU FAIL! He stormed out of the cafe and he didn't even talk to me.

3) Non-Existence blocked me from Twitter and also others who are associated to me and "that certain someone" because he was heartbroken wait, wait he thinks he is Zeus and can erase ppl from the surface of the Earth. But of course, he can dream that doesn't sound right either. Because He IS AND EMOTARD. Come on, I'm not surprised anymore. This is not the first time he blocked me from Twitter. Friends don't do that. Scums and assholes do. If you think of me as a friend, you should talk to me instead of coming up with your bloody idea of "She's a bitch and she's in a relationship with the guy that I hate. So I hate her too". Don't pass judgement like you're a God.

By the way, you don't have to hide behind the Internet to talk shit about me or anyone. Just tell me to my face. You put the word "fuck" next to my name. You said you HATE me. Oh well. And Oh, why did u think I'm using this method as well, because I just wanna know how scums like you think. Now I realize, YOU DON'T THINK! Your mouth/hands move before your Brain does.

Last but not least,

Dear Non Existence, you just became a girl. Congratulations. Make a contract with Kyuubey (wait, wha-?)

foreveralone.jpeg ? * clicks delete *

I have to at least blog this.

03/06/2011 = infinite happiness.

Because I finally get to say it and I've found my source of happiness =)

Have a great weekend everyone.

Happy x 10000000000 gazillionssssss

I've been sick for 3 days =( nevertheless, I'm still happy. When I fell sick on Tuesday, I was still working my butt off at the office. Blegh. Me and work. I couldn't lift my finger anymore after 4pm and decided to go home. When I reached home, I was sleeping like a log sick person should be and I woke up at 1:30am. Ah shucks. 10 minutes later I received a text message that defined 'happiness' =)

Still, I was sick the next day. Went to work and stayed for 1 hour and was asked to go home because my face was too pale. Slept almost the whole day. And I took the day off today too just to make sure I fully recovered.

Flu and cough still lingers and my throat sorta killed me a bit. Nevertheless, tomorrow is Friday and Friday means Happy Day! =))))

Happy x 100000000000000000000000000000000000 hundreds thousands millions billions trillions zillions :DDDDDDDDD

P/S: I rewatched "She's All That". Love Rachael Leigh Cook and Freddie Prinze Jr.
Here's the infamous OST by SixPence None The Richer. Reminded me of my high school life. 1999 y'll. I was only 15 back then! XD

It started out as...

"It started out as a feeling...
which then grew into a hope...
which then turned into a quiet thought...
which then turned into a quiet word...
And then that word grew louder and louder til there was a battle cry... "
- The Call (Regina Spektor)

I love the lyrics in this song. It gives me courage to go on and fight my so-called 'battle' :D
This song is one of the OST for The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian, sung by Regina Spektor. If you're wondering "Where in the movie was this song played?" Well, it's in the end where the 4 siblings had to go back and when the hot Prince kissed the ugly older sister.

I believe the words are true. I'm currently riding on the wave of happiness. I just hope it will last long :3 At least, I am happy... for now :3

Are you the source of my happiness? <3

AFT: Away From Twitter

So I have been missing from the Internet world for a bit. =_= This time, I took a break from Twitter. Unbelievable, I know. Hahaha. I used to have this "can't live without Twitter" thing but it faded. "Why?" I wonder. Twitter is addictive, I know. To me, my everyday routine would be to say "Ohayou!" to all my followers on Twitter, and that is the first thing I'll do even before I brush my teeth in the morning. And then, I'd be replying mentions (overdue would be at least within 12 hours =_=) or DMs. All day long, I'd be spouting sh*t on things I'd do and did or posting pictures but mostly spouting sh*t on Twitter. And of course, I'd say "Oyasumi" when I wanna go to bed or at least when I'm not sleeping on the keyboard (and have 'A' 'S' 'D' 'F' on my face in the morning). And for as long as it lasted, I got use to this life and it wasn't bad at all. Somehow, since last week, I sort of, got bored(?) no, that's not the word, more like I don't feel like going on Twitter. I don't wanna read stuff on Twitter because they make me go asdf for no reason at all D: and some things reminded me of stuff that shouldn't be happening at all.

Some reasons might be things like "I don't wanna read nonsense" or "stuff on Twitter makes me asdfasdf all the time" but everybody posts nonsense on Twitter and you can't help but be asdfied by it. Maybe I should specifically say stuff like "I don't wanna read nonsense from certain people, or a certain somebody". Then you will come up with stuff like "Just block/mute them" :3 I can't. Because my followers and the people I'm following are important to me. Maybe I'm trying my best to avoid some things. Things I couldn't say because it's too personal :3 Or maybe I'm just avoiding some people. Maybe. I don't know. I don't know why exactly.

Being too focused on it makes me feel like my life only revolves around it. It's as if I have no real life to run and my life runs on the computer. Not to mention I have to look at the computer almost 20hrs a day. like FUCK. Seriously, before there was Twitter (or the thing the call social networks), there's this thing called cellphones. And I was seriously satisfied with just text message alerts. But now, my phone doesn't rang as much and I don't often get text messages because ppl Tweet! D: And I check Twitter every second of the day, well, I used to D: (and I'm not that free... but then?! D: Naze? Naze na no? Naze na no yooooo???) I just can't get away from it! Oh just to add to that, Social Networks kill real friendships.

What makes me feel worse is, I'm pretty busy with work and all and when I come home every night, I see no one at home. Just furnitures. D: And what's the first thing I would do when I reach home? Login to Twitter and type "Tadaima". OTZ.... Yeah. That's when foreveralone.jpg comes in as a 15mb picture. Dinner? How about dinner you ask? Don't you go out with friends, you ask? Well, Dinner is : 1-300-88-6555(Nando's) or 1-300-888-333(Domino's) D: Everyone has their own life to run.

As complicated as it sounds, the easiest way to solve this is to... well, avoid it. To run away from it. To treat it as if it never existed! (OK. this is impossible). Re-evaluate my life. Set my priorities. I'm not 17! I'm 17 + 10!! D: And I have 1 grayhair! I know some ppl are worried about me because I suddenly disappear. I'm sorry guys, and don't worry about me. I'm fine. I just need time out. * hugs *

And to #Uchikazoku, Thank you for worrying about me, as the head of the family (cough) I'm sorry for disappearing without notice. I'll be back soon, I promise.

And to my friends: To those who texted my phone, you guys are the best! I get text message alerts! hahahahahaha!!! To those who constantly MSN-ing, gtalk-ing me to see if I'm ok, you guys are awesome. To those who asked around because they haven't seen me, you guys are great! Thank you.

To those who didn't even realize I've been missing, thanks for making me realize I'm not an important existence in you life. Arigatou, soshite arigatou.

P/s: Being away from Twitter is calming :3

Mozzarella Cheese Sticks!

So I was craving for mozzarella cheese sticks. :3
I tried to do it on my own and then....

Smoked Chicken slices with beef bacon and cheese sandwich + Mozzarella cheese stick.

The recipe:

It's seriously simple. All u need is

1 pkt of Dorito's
1 egg
1 block of mozzarella cheese

Crushed the chips, or rather try to pulverize it. LOL. Cut the cheese block into sticks, about 1.5 x 1.5cm. Dip the cheese sticks into the beaten egg and cover it with the crushed chips. Do this twice. Finally, deep fry the sh*t!

Enjoy :D